I have a tendency not to forgive people. Piss me off/upset me/slight me - THE END. It takes me a lot to forgive. I'm too old to take the shit.
I tend to not forgive either...I hold grudges, but at the same time, stop caring about people who piss me off-I just never wanna see them again, or the anger comes boiling back. My temper is probably my BIGGEST fault, though...I mean, its horrible. I've burned a lot of bridges because of my temper.
I asked a simple fucking question and you can't fucking answer it. Why fucking bother posting in this thread? (just kidding)
My unforgiveness is with family too, though? Is it possible to get that mad with family you really don't want to see them again? Me and my brother had an argument and he decided it would be a good idea to go for my throat. A few days passed and I saw him again - I expected an apology. He said he had nothing to apologise for. Physical violence crosses the line - surely.
Mine is with my family mostly, also. I don't attend holidays when my uncle is there...which he isn't very often because my family doesn't let him crack the wine bottle at 9am, so he doesn't like that too much. My other uncle will be there, but I do ignore him. And then, on the way home, my poor darling has to listen to me scream and yell about my hatred for him. If you make me angry enough, blood relation or no blood relation, I write you off like a bad check...that's just how I operate.
But I think it is different with siblings. I've gotten into some serious fights with my brother. Granted, we aren't close...we are far from close, but there is that unwritten rule that if something happens to one, the other one is right there. But, could I go out and do stuff with my brother? Probably not. Especially considering I've been helping him since his accident and he has been nothing but rude and selfish...
If you have to give them a reason to be sorry, then I wouldn't be sorry. If they show no remorse, I show no remorse. If I don't see them drowning in the water after I burned the bridge, then I don't mind traveling a different path.
Well, now that he's more capable of doing things on his own, I'm distancing myself...that's what we do. We fight, we distance ourselves, then we talk after like 3 months. If I let it get any further right now, it'd become volatile. One thing I have to accept is that I will NEVER have a close relationship with him.
Mine is punctuality. I've sabatoged so many opportunties this way. It's not once or twice it's a lifetime of being late. I've lost jobs, friends, events and so on. What's so frustrating is I know it's cost and I can never seem to break out of it. I've tried and failed. It's awful.