In this world we live in...I feel like I have a hard time accepting or at times even understanding the world around me, sometimes when I wake up I am filled with such overwhelming pain and sadness for the way the world is, for all the people who are in pain, who are trapped in lives that in no way fulfil even the most basic parts of what it is to be alive and well and concious...I am at a loss, the world just seems like this seething mass of pain and violence and hate and suffering, sometimes I feel that I will die with the intensity of it all. I guess in a way im probably too perceptive or something, and of all the people I have discussed this with the only advice anybody seems to give is to just ignore it, to pretend that everything is not like this and to pretend to ourselves that I am happy...to me this seems even more abhorrent than actually admitting that I have a problem with the way so many lives, including mine, are lived and squandered and ultimately wasted, I cannot help but dream that there is something more to life than the clothes we wear, the things we buy, our fucking nine to five shit city job that does nothing but make us miserable. I want to go and live in a tree, with the monkeys, but seriously nature is so healing and wonderful, how do people dismiss it like they do...I need a way to live a nice happy and gentle existance without completely alienating myself from everybody I love and care about. Does anybody feel the same way? Please reply or suggest things or something...I just dont know what to do or think anymore...I love each and every one of you! Sarah
You're getting in a philosophical mood - maybe you'd feel great among people discussing philosophy, or just reading philosophy. Or maybe just try to write poems.
I've felt exactly like you a whole bunch of times during my life. Now I try to find this really weird balance.....I try to blend in and just hint at those problems to the other people I meet. Maybe you could ask your favorite people to escape to the woods with you and commune with nature and with us unnatural hideous humans (just kidding on that part) Anyway....philosophy might satisfy you, too.
I used to feel this way often, and then I realized something: Most of what we experience as real, is not actualy real - but just social constructions. Things are only the way they are because we assign them that value or perception: ie, would George Bush be the president of the United States if everybody suddenly stopped believing that he is? The reason this concept is relevant in this thread is because many of us have a tendency to go into a tizzy about what we think "reality" is, when really the only "reality" is the ground I walk on and the air I breathe. Social constructions are all illusions and none are true until you believe they are. And most of what we perceive as wrong in the world is socially constructed.
wow i know just how you're feeling. I always seem to b sab or upset about something. I always care more for people than they care for me. It kinda reminds me of how Kurt Cobain explained his suicide, that he "loved life and the world too much" those arent the exact words but u get the picture.. i think that i and maybe you just naturally care more about people and things and that not getting the same love back is tough.. i think philosophy could b really interesting im giving it a try.. Just dont be so hard on yourself, not that you are but just remind yourself that from time to time..
I know exactly how you feel. As we speak I am having a hard time finding the beauty I used to see in the world. I find it harder & harder to make peace with this rock I live on because of all the atrocities I see being committed everyday, every second against innocent beings, innocent life, human, animal & plant. The evils seem to be taking over and that's a hard reality to accept. I find I am becoming spirtually fatigued by the weight of it all & am finding it difficult to just ignore it. I wish I could be more like those around me living simply for themselves with no reguard for anyone or anything else. Those people are happy because they just can't be fucked with giving a shit about anybody else but themselves. There seems to be much peace within this mentality. It's time to find the light... but where is it hiding?
