Hey ... I was wondering if any of you other *kids* (Im 16) have similar problems to mine... Somedays I will really wonder what the hell life is... it couldve been absolutely different from what it is, I mean we could be flying and stuff.. but why is it as it is... Life to me seems like a big illusion, nothing exists, it really scares me, sometimes when Im in a certain state, people will seem different... I will be aware that human bodies are just a shell... I mean sometimes itll really feel as if the universe is part of my mind, kinda like the theories you learn in Metaphysics. But since Im always out of reality, Im often depressed and feel like committing suicide... Can anyone help me out here? share your experiences maybe... (all this pretty much started like 2 years ago when I woke up from an intense mush bad trip...) thanks
Ok now that last sentence explains a lot already: I had this empthy feeling after going bad on a trip. The thinking will in time give you theories that you yourself find answers with, at some point you'll return down to earth. If you can't get out of this, find a psychiatre (it could be a psychosis). I myself have thought i was going insane, the many doubts, the 'why is stuff the way it is, what point does it have' questions ahve been stuck in my head for months, but they cleared. Don't trip again; or do (if you think you can). I tripped again after the bad trip that caused this and found rest in it (figured I was overexagerating). But maybe on you that doesn't go that way and if you have a tendancy to schitzophrenia I don't want to advice you that. Talk to friends, DON"T commit suicide, its not worth to die so young. Make a list of stuff thats worth living, think of 3 good things that happened each day. Death is zero, before birth and after death theres nothing ness, the zero line. Life has up and downs, for example, to +20 and -20. If you're in a minphase, a plusphase WILL come and it ís worth it. Live for the joy and try to talk to people about this. Don't let your thoughts circle in your mind too much, find distraction, if you smoke weed; cut down on it that helps aswell. Weed can cause paranoia in people, especially after mushrooms use. I have none but one real advice: it WILL get better. Don't think too negative, at some point it'll go better, time cures everything. Succes with everything. I hope you get out of it.
depression and thoughts of suicide are common in the youth, and if you think about it more then the average teen and take drugs like mushrooms, it may make you even more suicidal and depressed i was never deeply depressed 2 years ago, but when i was, i just took my depression out on my favorite hobby. for me, thats creating music, but it can really be anything that you enjoy doing.
whenever i'm reallly realllly blue, i either 1. go for a walk in nature 2. sleep it off 3. make a list of things i want to do before i die, cause then i'll focus on those and it would help also with the suicidal part cause you have many reasons just sitting there on why to stick around. or 4. have a friend take me on a drive around the mountains or 5. smoke (obviously drugs are not the answer in your case though)
I do that too But I guess those realyl are the best anyway. And most of those work. But when confusion is the base of it, sorting thoughts out is best. Writing stuff down can work too btw.