On weekends, or days just in general, I feel horrible if I don't do anything productive. I feel like i'm just wasting a day and it makes me feel lazy. I like to relax and stuff, but if i'm just lounging because I have nothing to do, I feel gross. Can anyone relate? Today would be a good example: I slept in mega late, then a friend came over, we ate, watched movies, then she left for work and I just kinda piddled around at my house >yuck<. Then, at 10:30pm, I decided to do one of my workouts from a magazine so my day would feel productive. Also, when i'm just sitting around being bored, I eat. I don't think it's because i'm hungry, it's because i'm bored. Of course, I convince myself that i'm hungry and get up and eat something, but in reality, I realize it only gives me something to do. Originally, I was going to go running today, but it rained all day...gah..
I would try not to worry about it. Your 15yo. You will have plenty of time to wish for days like today when you are an adult. Things will not seem so bad then. I was 15yo and I had no friends, ha, some things never change...anyway, at 15yo I became a workaholic with a job of some sort. I worked to escape, escape from the house, the home, reality. I missed my teen years from it. Your only 15 once, so dont be so hard on yourself otherwise you will miss out and become a little adult which only brings forth many issues in the future. Listen to me talk like I know something-I am a prime example of a bitter, and depressed adult. Peace
Rxhead is right enjoy your teen years and not like i did hehe (drinking smoking girls etc) anyway what you've described sounds good, you sound like a very motivated person and im sure you will go far!
I have that exact problem. All I do with my weekends is sit in my room and watch movies or go on the computer and rot my brain. Oh, and eat ramen. It gets to the point where I can't stand being around myself so I try to drown my thoughts out with mindless TV or something which just makes me feel worse. And I know I could easily do homework or clean my room... but I'm just so damned lazy. And I hate myself for it.
