This feels pointless.

Life I mean.....it feels so pointless. I feel quite empty, can't seem to enjoy hardly anything at all am overwhelmed by too much stress and I don't think its really going to improve any.

and I've heard people say it gets better.....I don't think it does, it never has gotten better so why would it start now.

Or another one is that it passes, seems like in my case these feelings have only gotten worse...it never has passed.

So yeah I feel quite burnt out and it sucks...and that concludes my half assed rant.

 

Seeing as I've been here awhile and have lived through Comfortablynumb3-10s views of life I suggest lay off the Floyd for a bit.

 

If it was pointless, why would you feel stressed by it's meaningless problems?

 

Can You Tell Us What Age Bracket You Are In....??

This Would Make It So Much Easier For Members To Understand Your

Situation And Advise You Accordingly....



Cheers Glen.

 

What Glen said ^^^

 

It is pointless.

But why does that have to be a bad thing?

I find it liberating. It means you can do whatever you want, there's no way to lose or fail, it's going to end for you just the same as it will end for everyone else. So between now and then, enjoy yourself, because life is full of amazing ups (and downs) and while the struggle might not always feel worth it, and you might feel real tired sometimes, there will be other times when you will be incredibly happy and satisfied, you might even find some purpose for yourself, and if you're really lucky, you'll find someone to love who will love you back, and life will not seem pointless anymore.

Laugh!

 

You should look up Nihilism.

I believe the point to life is to love, and have new experiences.

 

Experience is the Essence of Existence

 

I don't really see what that would accomplish.....I'm depressed so I should stop listening to my favorite band? kinda reminds me of the person I talked to once who told me I should stop listening to metal and rock can't say I listened to them.

Not to mention I had these views on life before i even listened to Pink Floyd for the most part.

 

I'm 22 and am essentially a college drop out with no real future of any kind.....figured I could be a little more direct and to the point on this thread and maybe find some perspective other then it gets better, such as how to deal with it when it doesn't get better.

 

I can't seem to enjoy myself at all....well unless I get drunk or high, but otherwise its like I either feel depressed, on edge or empty inside. Or all of those....but I do see your point.

Also though where are the ups?...also I have never in my life been incredibly happy and satisfied, and considering things typically go downhill for me I have a difficult time imagining I'd feel that way. But yeah laughing when I'm up for it but there are those days when I'm not.

 

This is EXACTLY what I was about to say.

Life IS pointless. I mean in the end we will all die and be in the same place. Different paths, same destination. No matter what we did with our lives. So instead of getting stressed out all this meaningless stuff - just relax and enjoy the ride.

 

I suppose....It would just be nice to enjoy these experiences rather then being in too much psychological pain to do so or having it kinda ruined with my non stop anxiety/worry. Also I wish I could say there's more good experiences than bad in my life but I can't really say that.

 

I would love to...but how does one not get stressed out when they have anxiety and PTSD? If I could just relax and enjoy the ride I would....but I seem to lack that ability. Besides at the moment I'm practically just a worthless bum, I have no way of making any income and for now am depending on borrowing a little money from my dad and my friend being nice...lol. So it's kind of hard not to stress about finding a way to have some income to live on more or less. It sucks and I hate it......and I would love to just live somewhere money is totally meaningless......but then getting somewhere like that would even cost money probably. So since I am too fucking mental for work...I probably have to deal with the government to get some assistance..last thing I want to do but that is what I get to spend 20's doing. Oh yeah and I'm in debt with college which I can defer........but probably not forever though it would be nice. Very frustrating so to keep going just seems a little pointless at times...but for now that's what I'm doing.

 

It sounds like you are expecting too much out of life?

If you are surfing and riding a crazy wave, during that time its very easy to just fall off and sink in the water. Trust me bro if keep your focus on ANYTHING you will eventually ride it out and make it to the sandy beach.

Depression comes with life, everyone has downs and must fight it at one point or another.

Also ages 20 - 24 i think are hard for a lot of people. Your clearly not a teen, but you have no footing in the 'real world' yet with a growing career and such...so a lot of people are lost..

I had the hardest time from 20 - 24.

 

What is it you think I am expecting out of life exactly?...I don't even expect life to get better. I just wish I could find a way to deal with this hellish existence without being in quite so much pain and maybe just maybe......maybe enjoy some of it as well.

Also I know everyone get's 'depressed' but I am not talking about just feeling a little down........I'm talking about actual clinical depression which everyone does not experience especially not long term. I mean I've been fucking depressed and anxious since I was a child...my whole childhood consisted of trying to fight and it burnt me out. If only it was from time to time.....but its not. Also not everyone has PTSD and generalized anxiety disorder. And most people seem to at least have a little bit of confidence.

Also the 'real world' looks like pure hell and misery to me....as is I can't even keep any job for more than a couple months because my mental crap interfering so I am not sure the real world would even want me employed by them.......But yeah I actually hate this society.

 

Drink and smoke are depressants. If you're like me, the next day is worse for my mood. I also have depression, anxiety, panic, and have to use medication. You are a candidate for evaluation. It's changed my world.

 

Sorry man i guess i don't know what to say...

One of the reasons i said what i did above is because of my aunt.

She is 50 and has had clinical depression her whole life every since she had a kid who is my cousin. I talk with him every other day. Two different times there insurance company dropped them because she used up all 15 days both times in the psych ward. She is doing good now for the most part heading in the right direction.

She is proof to me that people with clinical depression can still have a good life...just don't give up please.

Yea i agree with ya...society sucks and the real world is shit for the most part...but their is good in this world that can change peoples lives....i wish you the best.

 

Well it's all good, It's just frustrating...what you said is true and not bad advice, I guess I just feel I'm beyond that point. But yeah for now I have no plans of totally giving up on life...its just quite difficult but there are some things that help.

 

I don't know they are technically CNS depressants not really mood depressants(at least in my experience), and to me CNS depressant indicates some amount of relaxation...which is quite nice since I'm on edge quite a lot.

I know some people feel worse the next day after using such things, but that's not really typical with me....unless of course I drank a bit much and get a hang over, it never happens with the cannabis though that just helps me feel more calm and in control.

As for medications, I tried prozac and that crap caused me to have psychotic symptoms....so I promptly threw it away do not plan on trying any other SSRIs I don't care what they say to me it's not worth that potential side effect. I might be interested in an anti-anxiety medication but I've heard those are really addictive and not so great on the body so don't know I would trust that either...though I have to admit I've tried xanax I think its called a couple times and find it quite nice, but I'd have to be careful if I had a prescription.