alright so i have dosed lsd a ton and each time its led me down this thought process in my head i dont know its fucking insane but everything keeps telling me to kill myself and i keep telling it that i wont and it just urges me to do it more but at the same time warns me like its my dad or mom or some shit i seem to be able to control the intensity of it and i keep pushing it but it keeps telling me more and more i dont know if im making sense to any of you but im really having trouble here and im pretty sure im not going to kill myself but i get INCREDIBLE urges to do it
nothing much i can say other than just sit through it. do what you can to take your mind off it. changing location, people your with or put some relaxing music on?
dont, for your sake, but for the sake of the substances reputation. "teenager commits suiced while on lsd". try drawing.
I used to get those too, and psychedelics made them much stronger, and I as well was always sure I wouldn't do it, just to not break my parents souls. I realized the reason was because I was confused about the nature of reality and my place in it; everything seemed random, chaotic, psychedelic, meaningless, and ultimately fruitless. My mind naturally concluded this world was no longer for me and to therefore take my life and see what that does. Don't be afraid of your impulse to kill yourself, and don't treat it with a ten foot pole. Explore it. Ask it, why? What will I gain from killing myself? What will change in the world? What will happen if I don't kill myself? What always stops you from doing it in the end? What would it take for that thing to no longer be there? If it wasn't there, would you kill yourself, or would something else be stopping you? Pursue truth more than you pursue air, in all things you do. And as always call a friend to talk about these things if you feel overwhelmed.
You have apparent low self esteem and self worth and the lsd is allowing you to see this. Instead of using this insight for constructive change you are contemplating destructive change. For some it may be easier to kill them selves than make the steps required for a positive direction. Use the lsd as a tool for self exploration and self improvement. Redirect the self defeating thoughts and energy to a positive force for your benefit and subsequent benefit of others.
SUCH GOOD ADVICE. i had a bad trip on 7 grams of cubensis (and i think it was mild as bad trips go) and the only thing I regret is not leaving my room. had i gone outside, im confident things would have been different.
your just trippin'..get up and move to the other side of the room..it has its own set of obstacles/fun
death is a very comforting thought I always thought that if I were to suicide, I would do it in the fashion of buddhist monks in protest, were they burn themselves alive. But they just sit there motionless, in meditation as the fire burns away there flesh slowly. Sometimes I meditate upon that, what it would be like to burn yourself alive in meditation. Like, could you enter into an out of body state before the flames got to you, and thus youd feel nothing? Or would it just intensely intensely hurt, and you would just have to keep the mind calm while it burned you away. You'd prolly have to sit there in flames for like 5 minutes before you died.
if you ever have the thought of suicide, just think of how insane these next four years will be. deep down, you don't want to risk missing out on some heavy shit and you know it.
The heavy shit has been going on for awhile now. I'm looking to move into the direction of peace and goodness and beautiful love nymphs who'll tie me down and smother me in their love.