serious mental health problem

i have been struggling with the same problem for almost 2 years now. basically 16th birthday my friend and my father went on this thing at an amusement called the extreme skyler. huge thing like 200 something feet tall where u just go up and fall to the ground. anyway. before that i was like hahah fuck no ill never go on that thing. then after they went on it, well... basically tortured myself about it for a year. i think it had serious ties with my ocd, and like... idunno. i knew that i myself could not give a shit about going on it, yet this little suconcious urge in my head kept making me feel rotten and guilty as hell for not going on it, and telling me i needed to. it got really bad. so finally. about a year and 3 months later, i finally give in and say. ok. this is enough. i need to get this over with. so i do. i go to the park. and go on the thing with my dad. was i scared shitless? of course. did i enjoy it? hell no. was i proud of myself? hell yes. after i got off, i literally had never felt so free in my life. then i realized... oh.. shit... since it was dark they told me they could not have taken a picture or video, but at the time i was like whatever. then i realized.. fuck... i hope this doens't turn into another big thing... well. it did. basically that little urge in my subconious ever since has been making me feel guilty and rotten for not getting a picture or video, even though i COULD NOT. i really don't know what to do. i keep telling myself. its DONE. I DID IT. ITS OVER. but that little voice keeps saying. but wheres the proof?? wheres the proof??? you need a picture!! you must complete this task and make it all complete! personally i do not want to deal with this shit anymore! and personally i think if i go back and do all this shit again it will be like ohh u didn't savor the moment at the top so the picture means nothing... ooo u closed ur eyes so it didn't count... etc.. basically i don't know how to end this!! please help

 

.......it's a god damn amusement park ride

 

Did you go on the ride? Fo sho, yes, you showed that ride whos boss
Did someone witness you on the ride? Yes, fo sho

It's all in your head now, you took your fears head on and punched em in the face. Screw a picture, their weren't always pictures to prove things. And you proved it to yourself which is all you wanted and accomplished.

 

your right. and yes. i realize it is an amusement park ride. calm the hell down. that is why its so fucking hard to express this problem. because people are so quick to laugh at it.

 

that sounds like the Drop Zone at king's island

 

Does your problem have anything to do with a hard-to-read wall of text??

Cause that's the one I'm having here..

 

Youre obviously fucked in the head

 

and yet again hipforums doesnt let me shout

 

oh oh oh, I have a trick for this one

START WITH QUIET TALKING, LIKE I DID

 

lol photoshop might help too
Not sure if you can help it with OCD, but just don't think about it. If the thought comes in, don't try to handle it with more thoughts. Just fack it, relax.

Oh and smoke a joint, it honestly can help you handle certain situations like that, and definitely can help you forget your problems.

 

Why not go back and get that picture. Then make sure you leave enough of a window of time to repeat the ride until you feel you have taken from the experience what you need to in order to move on.

Good luck to you.

 

but i cant be assed to do that

 

umm ill tell you why not to go back on the ride. a) its fucking scary b) i don't want to and c) i really don't want to

 

Ok. Accept that as being your answer.

Now, how else are you going to solve this then?

 

You have to many excuses, you're not gonna get any other magical solution to your problem.

Calm down too. You sound too scared, nothings gonna happen. Take it from me, someone with absolutely no experience in your situation.

 

this is the ride

http://askpang.typepad.com/.a/6a00d8341c74ed53ef0120a4c4af54970b-pi

 

what?? i thought u were the one telling me i didn't have to do it again? im confused

 

I don't think you have to do it again lol, sorry if thats what it sounded like :S. I thought you were passing all the ideas people posted as not possible. I can see now that was a my bad

I think you should ignore the thoughts though still. Or like duck said, accept that you won't get a picture, and move on.

btw you're building the problem up too much. That's OCD for ya lol. You titled the thread as a serious problem. It's not in reality though, unless you make it.

 

i cannot express how fucking easy it is for someone to just say "just get it over with whats the big deal". it took me over a year to build up the courage to do that thing, after having nonstop dreams about it and too many people just telling me to do it, so i did. its fucked, do i know why my mind is like this? no. but i just don't know how to tell my mind to just be at peace. i also feel if i just "get it over with" im doing nothing more than giving into my ocd. sure, call the first time conquering my fear, but if i did it this time, it would be purely giving into anxiety

 

I recommend reading the 4th page here. Theirs no direct solution, but learning about OCD and how it works can help you reverse it's effects into conquering your fear.


Edit: Fuck it, read the whole thing and I know it'll help. But therapy is your best option. Theirs websites you can get better help from too, maybe even the therapy.

http://ocdforums.org/
http://www.socialphobiaworld.com/ocd-obsessive-compulsive-disorder-forum/