Man it was like pulling teeth to get online today. First off, none of the computers at any of the public librarys here in Santa Cruz will let you log onto hippyland all of a sudden. The comp lab at the uni is on summer hours now so it's barely worth the 3 hour bus ride for me. And, the friggin internet cafe I go to; after waiting an hour for a computer I ask the idiot behind the counter if somebodies time was up yet and she says "bliemajsgehckclau um um nkkk idh nsh ummm" I'm like "Wha?" She gos "Oh sorry, it's just that bsndksauajdnolosaoidnfln um um um" I'm like," sorry but I can't understand what you're saying" She just waves her hand over the coffee shop and mumbles again, without looking at me. wtf. If I'm on for 45 min. and somebody walks in needing a computer the cashier always comes and tells me my times up. At this point we're going on an hour 20 min. and I can't even get this idiot to speak in real words. Passive aggresive idiot.
She sees me looking at the clock and then at her and she's got this evil little smirk on her watermelon-sized face. Ah ha!! I've seen that smirk before. dozens, maybe hundreds of times. It's the badge of an agent of SHTT-PAC; the Society of Holier Than Thou-Passive Aggressive Commandos. Now I understand. I've been on their hit-list since their inception.
you are the man naykidape.. sounds like you were tuggin against destiny there with the internet for a while, luckily god is forgiveness and love(or so some hippie told me)..you used to fast and detoxify and get high a lot didnt you? that would explain a lot....
naykidape, you need to get on the cashier's good side. bring watermelon-head a chocky bar and a wink next time.
hey stranger. where you been? Lol, yeah I figured I was walking against the wind there. the universe was probably trying to keep me from fucking up in a way I couldn't forsee, but stubborn and pigheaded as I am it pissed me off anyway. Yeah I used to fast and detoxify alot and get high a little. Lately it's been more the other way around. How's life treating you?
hey man, you have no idea how nice that is to read somebody who totally understands what the fuck im talking about. im a stubborn pigheaded against the wind sunuf a bitch sometimes too by food poisoning i guess, but other than that life and destiny have been so kind and so giving. its really a blessing ive discovered veganism and fasting i think. and especially raw veganism, which seems to be the most ideal condition for man since its basically a constant fast but totally nurturing your body at the same time. plus at that point i think your more aware of the poison your puttin your body and dont even wanna eat wrong which im sure you know all about. ghandi was a fruitarian and lived until he was murdered, so its obviously a really healthy thing i wanna evolve into at some point at my life. raw veganism=true liberation and oneness imo, and MUCH easier than fuckin mediating your life away fighting this stream of food and mental barrier which is basically the CAUSE of all your obstacles. mind-body are very much connected. its some heavy fuckin shit but really light at the same time, not everyones cut out for it, not even me right now i dont think. in the process of breakin a fast now actually and re-poisoning my body basically, feelin really sick though. not bad sick, your body has a lot of chemicals stored from the years of un-healthy eating to get rid of and it doesnt like them sick. hell is the path to heaven i suppose.
Yeah, I don't think most people realize what a mind alterring drug some food can be. I've been pretty neglegent about my diet these days except that I still do alot of partial fasting. I still think meditating is important. It's kind of a mental fast, no internal dialog. I think it helps you get rid of some of the old poisonous thoughts in your subconcious. good luck with breaking your fast.
hey thanks, it all seems to be unfolding really nicely and how its meant to be, like the universe is forgiving me for turning my back on the garden and not feeling ready to be so free yet. think ill just do my weekly fast thing to honor the spirit now. and yeah meditating is the shit as well, fasting makes it so much easier though. thats would i would compare the beginning of a fast too for a while, very light meditation, then you go into a very intense state i would compare to mushroom if you do it right and stick with it. almost like getting high on pot, then getting high on mushrooms. a day fast is similar to pot i think, 1 day for shrooms if you do it really right and your ready to dive right the fuck into your spirit and experience some sickness. i would probly never do mushrooms again because i think its cheating now and almost a sin, the real path to god is through fasting and diet because like you said their JUST like drugs. we need to clean our acts up, its something everyone should experience at some point in their life imo if their religious at all or believe in any kind of higher power.
yeah i have been drinking some artificially colored and "natural blueberry" flavored tea mixed with lots ah water and i ate a lotta blueberries(which are real high in antioxidants and my body didnt seem to mind filling up on those). did some lime and wheat grass juice earlier squeezed the old fashioned way. wheat grass seemed to really help me along, was almost expecting to throw up from the few detox experiences i read about it people juicin it. i drank it slower though since i did the juicin a little more natural and patiently. and i did eventually throw up, thought id trick my body into producing acid and going raw vegan by not chewing an organic apple well. body didnt sit well with that and threw up obvious pieces of apple hours later. not painful throwing up at all, totally controlled and i was drinkin a little orange juice everytime i wanted to get more out. i had a huuuuge fuckin headache and felt terrible after eating an organic apple though. despite its organic chemical-free goodness, it was still not farmed properly and picked when ripe and it was no where near juicy as its potential. we need to start growin more of our own grub. my neighbors behind me have an apple tree and it always drops fruit on my yard so i look forward to that. sordove a sign and a blessing. i think my body woulda dug a real juicy apple thoguh. it didnt mind an orange at all and i hadnt felt like i had eaten after eating that. hell its hard to find ANY ripe skinned fruit these days, i get certain organic pears that are if im lucky.
Wow! you're really seriously going at it. I love those phases in my own life when I'm there, but I don't beat myself up for the time in between (doesn't help). I know what you mean about the high. I even like that part of it in the begining when you start seeing a little more clearly and the first thing you see is how deluded you are. It's sort of like the physical sick feeling the first cpl days of a fast where before your body can get rid of the poisons it has to dig them up first. One thing though, I never try to look at my fuck ups as "sin". If I thought God was watching me waiting for me to make a wrong move so He/She/It could judge me, I'd probably spend more time hiding from my higher power than trying to get in touch with It. He understands, He made us. He knows we're supposed to be fuck-ups. If we don't make mistakes what do we have to learn from? As long as I'm trying, the harshest my God ever gets with me is to shake his head and laugh. Once I get around to swallowing my pride I usually get the joke too.
good words brother, this shits intense though. neglected to drink and i just threw up even more apple after gettin so caught up in postin. blueberries were not there though. almost worried theres no turning back but there is, i have faith. my logic says blueberries are alkaline and digest easy as their meant to, so ill stuff myself in those so my stomach grows back and my intestinal system has some work to do, then ill feel like ive gone to hell in a handbasket and want to pass the fuck out and sleep and give my body much needed time and rest to heal. totally dig your words on god though, its love.
Whoa! Take it easy. don't give your body any more of anything than it asks you for. I'm not going to give you any advise about fasting or breaking a fast (there's plenty of websites that know more about it than I do) jsut saying it doesn't have to be an ordeal. and you really do have to be careful, you can hurt yourself.
i was sorda hopin for some, or some reassurance. the thought of not returning or damaging my health is scary. im not ready to die.
Listen, like I said check out some websites. Fasting's dangerous if you don't have some guidelines. If you're sick, if you're that sick, tell somebody. Have someone keep an eye on you.
i thought the knowledge of acidity was a guideline. i think ill be okay its just not gonna be a fun come down. i would appreciate some knowledge, maybe a prayer or good vibe or 3. im not in dire need but it never hurts... think of the time it would take to find specifics im lookin for, im tryin to pass out right now...
