Permanent damage from acid. Physical and brain problems, male reproduction problems..

I try and make this as short as possible. Please bare with me..
I need help with this problem. I have only done acid a few times and had horrible, brain damaging trips everytime. It's almost impossible to explain the depth of what acid has done to me. I always tell myself I dont regret taking it, because I saw myself thru a different perspective and it helped me change things about myself that seriously needed to be changed, such as personality and stuff. However there is no doubt it scratched up my mind.
I don't know if for some people acid doesn't work, or if for some people their brains don't agree with it, all I know is i never get visuals from it, just extreme paranoia, schizophrenia, just terrible things it is difficult to tell thru a computer screen. I think i have some mental problems in my family, and my first question for this thread is for some people do they not see visuals or hallucinations its just a terrible, hours long mind fuck, such as the ones I had?
On to the next part then. This is the most important question I have, I have wanted to ask about this for SO SO long, its been a problem for me ever since my last trip, and I am never going to trip again, so help me. It's pretty personal, so here it goes. One of my horrible acid trips I looked down at my dick and it looked like it was shrinking, seriously shrinking, it got so so small it was like an ant. This is not to be confused with the shrivel dick thing, which I get as well. EVER since that horrible trip, which there were other horrible things inside that trip as well, not just the dick thing, my dick has NEVER been the same. I don't care what I've read about it, how people say its all psychological, my dick is permanently FUCKED up. Whenever I was going thru the acid comedown and for DAYS after, my dick would get super super small and shrivel up, which I found out happens to lots of people, but seriously for weeks after my last trip my dick was permanently shriveled. It eventually returned back to semi normal size, but it still has deformities that my dick NEVER used to have...
For people that think I'm just complaining and being a baby, please, you do not know what this is like. My dick has never been the same and my last trip was over half a year ago!!!!
Apologies for how long this is, I am hoping maybe some other guys will come on here and read this and maybe they are going thru the same thing. I NEVER wish this on any other guy, I am simply hoping other guys know what this is about and how to help this. Kinda like when you do cocaine and you get shrivel dick, that is what my dick is like almost 24/7 now, it has crinkles in it and its small and kinda hard when I squeeze it. I'm desperate to fix this.
I have never told anyone else about this because, truly, I have not many friends or acquaintainces and I cannot tell my family for fear.
Masturbation is never the same for me anymore. I need to add, on that horrible trip where my dick looked like it was shrinking, I was masturbating so I have no clue if this is all one HUGE HUGE physiological psychological bad acid trip problem that I will forever have. I have not really researched if acid can cause permanent brain/body problems like this.

Also, please if this is too inappropriate for this forum please moderators at least pm me first so I can copy all this because I poured my heart and soul into this and I have no where else to ask for help, this seemed like a very active forum so I'm hoping people know about this problem.

Please, for the love of anyone out there who can lend a hand to this poor, permanently disturbed and damaged guy, just post what your opinion is of this. I thank you all for taking the time to read it means a lot, I just want this fixed...

 

dude this sucks. but it definately could be many things. to clear something out, its impossible that your penis was physically changed. it can however be something to do with your brain releasing signals to make your dick grow or contain blood.

ive not done acid but there are some possibilities here:

first, may as well suggest that perhaps your penis is no different from how it used to be, but you are now noticing and considering it in a completely different light. your penis shrinking to teh size of an ant can reflect a fear of having a small penis, and then diffusing into a long term perception of problems in your penis afterwards.

other possibility is similar but its not on a conscious level really but a physiological level, ie, your mind is so turned off by the sight or thought of your penis that it effectively shrivels you up in the same way that would happen if on coke or some other stimulant which shrivels your penis.

most important questions however are:
what happens when you try to have sex (Or do you find it impossible to get to that point due to insecurity, Or are you a virgin?)

can you masturbate anymore? can you get erect? is it more of a general shrinkage, or do you have erectile dysfunction?

 

thanks for your fast reply. i can still masturbate but its barely enjoyable anymore. im not sexually active, i can still achieven an erection but its like permanently different, im not lying. it lops sideways different ways now and i apologize if this is so personal, but it feels disconnected from me. that is the perfect word, i should've used that in my first post. it feels totally disconnceted from my body, like its only attached by a little bit. when i was on that horrible trip and masturbating, i felt like it could just rip off, it was so weak and like thinly connected to my pelvic area. just typing this makes me so depressed and then there's the fact that this is so personal most people are not even going to respond. like i said the perfect word is disconnected. its like just a thing hanging there now. and even when i get an erection the erection is barely hard anymore, like its hard but where the base of the the penis or shaft whatever connects to the pelvic part, that part just feels really weak and barely connected. i apolgoze again..this is so sad and disturbing

 

if its been like this for half a year you should go to doctor.

 

i also need to add something. i apologize for lying but im not 27, im 18. im forever scared that i permanently messed up my growth period of whatever because im still growing and maturing and this could've really fucked up my sexual growth/dick growth

 

the only possible physical change you could have done was that in your acid induced stated you actually yanked your penis in a way that damaged it, without feeling it. but iut sounds mostly psychological.

but yeh i suggest going to a doctor to make sure theres nothing wrong with your physical penis, it will give you a lot of peace of mind perhaps and help you focus your psychological recovery

 

Being a guy who is experienced with LSD, and also is of medical background (check my posting name for a clue), I would say that it is probably a psychological problem, unless of course it was an injury related to LSD induced over-exertion during masturbation. Don't go see a "doctor," as in a general practitioner. Go see a urologist. GP's know nothing, trust only specialists. Also, did you say your family has a history of psych problems? LSD has the potential to aggravate psychological problems. So, see a Urologist first. If that turns up inconclusive, see a psychologist. Don't mention the LSD to the Urologist. Mention the LSD to the psychologist.

 

i would be very embarassed to go to a doctor but if thats what needs to be done i will definitely go. am i allowed to tell him about me taking the acid? there's no consequences for me telling him that correct? i'll tell him my whole story about the bad trips and stuff and what happened. i never thought about damage i could've done while masturbating. again, i really really apologize to you guys for going so into detail and being personal and i really thank you for spending the time to reply, yes i definitely was masturbating very hard. my dick was very sore for days after that, i definitely over-exerted during that session. shit!!! this is all hitting me now, what if i really did like yank my dick but ididn't feel it because the pain-blocking induced by the lsd. SHIT!!! i didn't even know dicks could be yanked like that.
is there a website or specific medical term someone can direct me to for info about Over-exerting during masturbation? you guys are amazing for helping me and even responding me, most guys are reading my posts and like running out the door screaming. i really apologize for the personalness in this. thanks

 

no worries man, as everyone said its probably mental and just messing with your labido, but I would not recommend informing your doctor about the acid use, go to him/her soley for the physical inspection, if you feel mentaly disturbed after and are not reasured that nothing is wrong you can talk to a psych, inform him/her about the lsd and everything you saw etc. thats what they are there for, and no if you are 18+ they can not tell anyone so just open up and youl sort your way through this!

Peace!

 

If you are ok with taking XTC (know and accept the in theory risks), take a small dose (maybe only half a normal dose) to create a sense of well being which may allow you to see that YOU are able to feel good and what not.

I am specifically suggesting this ONLY as a way to allow yourself to psychologically and physically feel good. Perhaps this could build confidence and push you back over the edge into "normalcy."

Possible bad reasons for typing this: If it does help you resolve your issues they may come back after the well being created by the X has worn off. This may cause you to only associate feeling good from X--- thus psychologically you create the link of only feeling food whilst on X. That would be bad

My suggestion is more of a shortcut but:
I based my post on the multiple reports of rape victims and other trauma patients using X as a means to see their problem from a different perspective, the ability to accept it and move on (you don't have to forget about a negative experience to move past it).

 

you can tell teh doctor about drug use because theyre not allowed to share this info, but really, you want them to take your problem seriously, and some doctors might not take druggies seriously

 

Ok the first thing you need to do is stop worrying about your trip. There is absolutely no way that your penis was changed. You just see it in a new light now, having looked at it while tripping. Tripping creates a detachment from your body, and that is no doubt what you experienced. You once felt like your penis was you, now your penis is like this strange thing growing out of your body. This is a natural reaction... our bodies are not us. That is what tripping tells us. I think you have grown really paranoid about your trip. If you believe that your brain has been ruined by your trip, then the prophecy will come true... it is completely self-fulfilling. The fact is, your dick has not changed, no matter what you believe, so stop worrying about that. You mentioned people who "don't get visuals" and just have a crazy mindfuck. Tripping affects everyone differently, and it can vary from one session to the next. It seems like you have a powerful mind capable of going deep places within your head. Some people just see pretty colors and their body feels a little funny, whereas other people transcend reality and have an out of body experience. I've only dropped once, and it was extraordinarily powerful. It definitely changed me, and I thought I was going a little crazy for a little while (although to be honest I was going a little crazy before I tripped). But, guess what, I wasn't going crazy. We are all a little bit crazy. The best thing you can do is to stop worrying about it. I know that is probably a lot easier said than done. I'd love to talk to you more about this if you want to PM me. I think I can help.

 

Well one acid trip a long time ago a bunch of shit went wrong with my body and it's been permanent no doctor can figure it out. I have a bunch of non psychological symptoms that resemble a neuromuscular problem. I sometimes feel the same way you do about my wang. I have urinary retention, my stomach doesn't empty fast enough, problems clenching my muscles when I have bowel movements, and a general sense of "detachment" from my gut. I have done massive amounts of drugs, tripped hundreds of times, and I still don't know if that LSD batch caused it, or it was meant to happen and I just happened to be on LSD when it happened.

I am a true believer of LSD one could say, I to this day sometimes get sad because I cannot ever visit that place again.

 

Uh...am I the only one here who's figured out that the real dick issues here are the ones getting yanked by abuzedfrumit? I mean, if I'm wrong, then we better start writing the Erowid report on the *only* LSD-related cock casualty known to modern science. Ya jerks...

 

First of all - "This is a natural reaction... our bodies are not us. That is what tripping tells us" I completely disagree with this. There's no 'me and my body'. You ARE your body. Me and my body are two inseperable entities, and I believe psychedelica confirms this more than anything.

Now to the main topic - Mate, lemme tell you this, I've had huge insecurities with my penis. The thing is, psychedelic states of mind makes you question your self and your own existence. A long time after my first acid trip, and sum after the second, I had a lot of fears I was going insane. This wasn't due to any specific anatomical concerns on my part, just general paranoia and lack of self-confidence.

This whole problem you're having, from what I've read, is all about your fear of your own penis. The lack of self-confidence that you're having about it is the thing that is messing up. Believe me, the mind is a powerful thing, if fact, as I put above, it IS you. You and your penis is one as well. But you feel it shouldn't be this way, so you reject it and make it ugly and useless.

What you need to do is built up self-confidence around it. Now, from experience, this is pretty hard but it can be done. Just make sure you give it proper attention, both from yourself and others. A good start would be for you to discover that your case is not at all sad and disturbing. It's natural to have insecurities for just about anything. In fact I'd be worried if someone had no insecurities whatsoever. In fact I'm pretty sure that's impossible. You're no different than the other 6 billion or so people on the planet man, there's nuthing wrong with you. That is what you gonna have to accept. No amount of doctoring is gonna help you on that one. I'd be a bit careful with psychatrists as well, sometimes they can be condescending cunts, but if you feel you need it, go for it.

 

2Cs, your symptoms are unquestionably the result of being in the proximity of rethuglicans for extended periods, whether you knew they were or not.

 

Just adding a fact here.
LSD cannot cause brain damage- but I suppose this depends on how you define damage. LSD causes changes the the chemical balances in your brain but no actual physical damage. From how you described your trips it's possibe it wasn't LSD, strange that you had no visual distortions at all. Amphetamines will shrink your dick temproarily, I always remember looking at my dick on speed- what the fuck happened to you- but it always returned to normal.
You said you were masturbating whilst tripping- maybe you yanked too hard or something to cause a slight deformity.
OK- this is personal here, but I had a kink in my dick from too much wanking when I was a teenager- I'm a married man now so I don't wank anymore, but what I did was for a few months or so I started wanking with my left hand instead of my right, it took a little to get used to but it the end my dick was straightened out, now I'm ambidextrous when it comes to wanking.

 

lol I wish this were the case, but I can't drop or even smoke anymore... I actually can't even eat too much. I have muscle spasms and twitching and other bullshit too. I can't really 'blame' it on LSD, because I've eaten so much other shit and so much of the research suggests that physical damage from LSD is near impossible... however I do wonder if some byproduct of an incomplete or messy synthesis could cause actual neurological damage.

The problems could be all related to my stomach... my stomach is out of place and doesn't empty fast enough, which I guess in turn could cause other shit in my gut to not sit right etc... IDK but it's going on over a year now I haven't made any progress except proving that my stomach doesn't empty at the proper speed and that I have a hiatal hernia. Nothing to link the problems together yet.

 

I would think neurological side effects from any possible unwanted byproducts of incomplete reactions, etc., would be transitory. Most of the Lysergic acid compounds are inactive. It's possible that something happened from an RC (one reason I avoid such things, as I lack the melting-point apparatus and spectrometer necessary to ID them), but, again, I would think any side effects to be transient.

You might need to have tests done to exclude some funky viral, bacterial, or amoebic infection. Hope you get better, brother.

 

omg crazy people trying acid.....