starting to spiral out of control. past few months been on a hiatus and selling anything of value in my house for money for pills. im a sad sad fuck.
I feel you man. If you really want help, Id suggest switching to kratom or methadone for a little while to help come off without getting sick.
Dont fuck with methadone! Its harder to come off than dope! I was never able to quit until I went to treatment and got medically detoxed. I would use suboxone! Good luck to you!
op 80s alot op60s perc 10s roxys mostly. pretty much everything hydrocodone and oxycodone and some other oxymorph and hydromorph a whole smorgus board. rather sad really. i was thinking subs but they are very expensive and i have no insurance, although there is a doctor within 10 miles of me.
I would go with subs. yes they are expensive , but they will help you come down with out getting sick, they last longer & it would probably be cheaper than what you are spending now. It would be to help you, ya know? Good luck man I have been there & I know how bad it sux.
If you do decide to go with methadone or subs, I suggest you taper down from them as quickly as possible, as the w/d's from those two can be just as bad, if not worse than all the other opiates you've been doing. If you're really determined to get clean, try getting some benzo's, clonidine, and anti-diarrhea meds and go for the cold turkey detox. The clonidine will lower your BP and help deal with RLS. It'll be rough, but you'll feel great and proud of yourself when it's over with. Good luck with whatever you choose buddy.
I was on subs for a year and half, saved my ass, now i'm nearing 60 days off subs. It feels weird to be normal but I have zero cravings for opiates. Its a nice feeling. And long as you taper properly then you won't have that hard of withdrwaws, i'm a pretty big pussy especially when it comes to sleep and RLS and i made it out. Taper down like to .5mg and you will be golden. Also, IMO, i feel that just quitting cold turkey is a bad idea, you will end up relapsing. You need time for your brain to adjust and your people places and things to change. Good luck man.
