my job i start in

13 hours

i wanna tell u guys what it is cause
i guess
i want support

i tell myself it's
better then the alternative

stripping or some s hit or worse

so if i say what it is?

will someone please tell me

it's temporary and it's a job

 

I HAVE A FUCKING COLLEGE DEGREE

had a bad life but

yadda yadda

i need this job and that is sad.

im soooo above this job.. someone tell me to do it.

 

what is the job?

 

as long as it doesn't make you feel worse about yourself go for it

or if it does, and you're certain you'll recuperate, it's probably worth the risk

but if it's gonna fuck you up for good (like prostitution, stripping, selling drugs etc all have a high probability of doing) don't do it

 

hah see

its an honest job but

im ashamed

i dont wanna be but i have sooo low self esteem. like my in laws know i had a decent job and lost it cause my felony for drugs in 2000 and
i know im qualified for more

i also know i fucked up and i dont have a car and it's a job and it's not selling drugs so i should just do it.

but i can just hear people


"guess where trish works?"

 

no it's not like that ihmurria... but it's just

something that

okay my inlaws are like lawyers and shit and i have a degree. 2 years yes. but imma finish school and my gpa is still 3.85

im not dumb.

but i guess sometimes u gotta swallow yer pride?

 

fuck, I work in retail selling shoes to scary smelly bitchy idiots... swallowing pride ain't gonna hurt you none as long as it damage who you are. crappy jobs are just that, crappy jobs... and as long as they remain temporary and you don't get stuck in 'em for a few decades it's no biggie

 

It cant be that bad. Its not McDonalds, is it?

 

what if..

its fast food but

i got no car and its in my back yard? ALMOST literally. there is no road. my apt complex grass then the parking lot

i feel like im too good for it or people will seriously..put me down?

but yer right it is temporary

it's not my career and i keep reminding myself that any job that isnt sleezy is better no job and it's just TEMPORARY.

 

eh, I worked at subway for a while. It's not exactly fun but it does provide money. Enough for bills and food until you find a better job right?

what's your edumication in?

 

so what if it is?

 

who cares what they think
it's money and free french fries.

 

Who cares what the job is.


Money in the pocket is all that matters.

Don't feel ashamed about it.

 

i have a two year psychology degree which u can do
um
nothing with!!!
then i got a felony from 2000 for drugs
imma switch to social work or something that requires less schooling i think cause i dont agree with the psycho big bro..give em meds n kick em out thing

i can get my felony expunged and im not giving up to having a meaningfull job but

yeah i guess i gotta get the money and stay fuck the assholes.

 

haha but that's what it is.

and thanks.

it's better then NOT having a job when i need one right?

 

Lol.. I was trying to make you feel better by pointing out one of the worst possibilitys to make yours seem better......next time I go with chuck e cheese.

 

haha

i wanna be the mouse.. for real!

 

I've shoveled shit in hell to make a paycheck...doesn't matter what you do, as long as it's on the level...I've got a couple of arrests under my belt from years ago and they go away with time. Start somewhere, be patient and it all comes around.

Gotta pay you dues to sing the blues...

 

yeah but

"where does trish work?"

"mcdonalds"

i dunno

i know i gotta just do it for a lil bit or else im an ass but i got hang ups ya know?

 

Sometimes you gotta step back a little to get ahead.