MDMA Long term effects and brain damage- please help me!

I am a 23 year old college student from Michiganand have been using the drug MDMA for about 5 years since about 4 months ago when i quit. The first 2 years it was once a month, then the next two it was 2-3 times a month, and this year until june it was weekly and sometimes twice a week. And it wasn’t until recently until I started thinking about the long term effects. Some which I have noticed are nothing is really that fun anymore. My reaction time is heavily slowed, it is very difficult to concentrate on things, and even simple tasks take a lot longer to do. I don't really have too many intelligent thoughts, sometimes I feel like my mind is blank. I also don't really have my own opinions about certain things, il just go along with whatever anyone else is saying. I get laughed at a lot for being slow and I know I am. I have looked up the symptoms of ADD on the web and am sure i am experiencing alot of them such as being very easily distracted, shifting from one incomplete task to another, often not listening to what is being said, often failing to give close attention to details, often not listening to when spoken to directly, difficulty keeping my mind on any one thing. I get bored easily with a task and bounce to the next task, and the next task after that. Organizing and completing a task proves troublesome. Focusing deliberate, conscious attention to learning something new is extremely difficult. I never got these symptoms until this year. I dont know what i should do. I now fear am I am a permanent E tard. I get lost in other peoples conversations, sometimes when people talk to me directly I just zone out and lose track of what theyre saying. I usually get very confused with things that involve short term memory, like il say i wont forget to do this and i forget 2 minutes later. I have not done E for nearly 4 months now and am noticing a tad of improvement in my concerntration but I still think my short term memory is obliterated. I have no sense of direction. I have read on Erowid that people that have rolled way more often than I have, made substantial progress on recovery after several years of abstinence. This is the only hope i have, that one day i will recover from this. I am scared shitless that I have damaged my brain and ruined my whole life. I am about to graduate college with a good gpa and hopefully will attend law school in January but i don't know how i will make it because after rolling so much, even reading is alot harder. I tend to overlook alot of things and skim through words, continuously having to tell myself to slow down and read slower. I guess i cant read as fast as I used to. Does anyone think that I will recover in a few years or is there no hope for me?

 

there is allways hope. my brother did a shit load of drugs, and about 14 months later after quitting, all of a sudden he said he could think again. so it took him fucking 14 months for that clarity of thougtt to return.

i dont know much, but you could get some 5-htp. and dont take anyother drugs, like weed or anything, if you want all that shit to go away i mean.

go for a daily run around a really nice park, that did me soooo goood. after 2 weeks of that you'll feel alot better, the more you do the beteter. somhow it just helps clear the head and it helps depression.

 

e can really mess u up...i've been tellin pplthat here alot...ive seen an extreme..very extreme case....that shits very dangerouse shit...if your in colledge now ? ok..if u stop u maybe ok....lets hope....i know some1 who was extreme..shed get lost going to the store 4 doors down...shed write herself notes to remind her what shes doing then forget where they were...its bad shit....

 

It gets better. Believe me. I've been there and its been maybe four years since I have last rolled and it defiantly gets better. Takes time though.

 

yeah mdma isnt fucken around. i used to loooove to fucken put holes in my brain and now i regrret it so much. i used to be pretty fucken intelligent if i do say so myself, but now im rather slow. but at least we're not one of those thizzed out perma fried retards that cant spell there own name. just dont touch it again thats all.

 

I felt like that for a while... almost FEELING the holes in my brain. It isnt totally 100 percent better but it is A LOT better. In my own experience, the brain does seem to repair itself, espiecially if you work it. (its a muscle like any other muscle)

 

i can tell ya today.. from someone who used to take anything i could find..i regret everything i did except weed 7 a few of the many trips..no i guess i dont regret trippin alot but i did too much probly..i knewwhen to stop..where was i going with this..oh yea..i see alotta too young kids messing with too powerful of shit..if your not careful you can really regret it..

 

dam right, kids that take shit and think they're invincible. i've had 14 year olds try and fight me when they're off their heads and it's quite sad to see that. what goes up must come down and the longer you leave it, the longer you pay the price afterwards.

i've dropped from 2-3 times a week for a year (been doin em regularly for 4 years) to once a month, if that.

 

madma causes a massive release of seretonin from receptors in the brain, causing euphoria. this depletes the receptors and they recede from overuse.

in time, your brian will develop new pathways and reconnect old ones. it just takes time. the human body is a marvoluos thing.

 

how did you keep the magic for 5 years.

i took pills for about 2 years weekly and i used to take 7 or 8 pills a night. Some people i know took upwards of 20 and the are all fine. none of us had ADD, you just need to lay off the drug for a while and youll be right as rain in a few months.

get yourself some omega3 fish oil and 5 htp and take them everyday and this will speed up the process.

 

Yeah Philber, just what everyone else said, give it time and you'll get back to normal. I was in a far far worse way than you are now from doing too many pills but within about 9 months or a year of not doing any e I was completely back to normal.

 

i'm sure everyone here is fully aware of this. it is common knowledge, especially in the MDMA forums of all places.