kill me kill it

Since I was about 10, I have always known that I was going to leave the world on my own terms, and probably young. It has been quite a while since then, but I know for sure that my time is drawing to a close. I have a plan and all. Has anyone else felt like they've known forever that their lives would end by their own hand?

 

I suppose the obvious question is ……

WTF is IT

I read this sci-fi story once called The Host which suggests that all humans from birth share a symbiotic relationship with a parasitic organism which lodges itself into the brain then slowly over time learns the elemental processes of the mind and begins to take over


Hotwater

 

just watching the last comic standing

my life is just burning lik a candle , it will end up someday.

 

Yes, I have known from a young age as well. These days it is seeming pretty close.

 

Sheila, take a bow

 

I've been burning mine at both ends for thirty years.

 

yeah I know I will go by my own hand. I even have a set date, 58 years to go.... i made a pact with myself at one point to stick around and if things aren't looking up by that date then I'm gone. and I purposely made it so I'll have a long life.
my luck, I'll die tomorrow.
death is a strange business.

 

i use to think i would go out on quaaludes but once those were no more i just keep toking along he he he

 

Hunter S Thompson left with this:

"No More Games. No More Bombs. No More Walking. No More Fun. No More Swimming. 67. That is 17 years past 50. 17 more than I needed or wanted. Boring. I am always bitchy. No Fun — for anybody. 67. You are getting Greedy. Act your old age. Relax — This won't hurt."

then left with this: (pls pay no mind to the people taping it)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v9ReDDDC0Rg"]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v9ReDDDC0Rg

 

I'll die when I die, whether that be at my own hands, I don't know.

 

yeah same as im 28 and it feels like im twice my age ive been burning my candle at both ends for way to long now my life will be short lived

 

It's only a couple more years. It won't feel like 2 though. It will be over really fast.

 

yea. I've also held the notion that I would die young. I use to say it when I was like 11 and it would disturb my mom. lol. Although life is good, and I would only kill myself if I lived too long (into my late 70's or 80's and unable to care for myself.)

 

I plan on spreading my misery as long as possible

I will be surprised if I go over 50 though

 

For me, no I don't intend to end my life on my terms as such, I'm pretty happy with my life and so long as I'm happy I want to carry on, it's not like I'm gonna get to 50 and end it all I'd quite happily live till like 150 and not want to end it, so long as I'm fairly fit and still happy, I don't want to get to like 80 and be constantly ill and weak and not be able to do things for myself though, but as I say as long as I'm happy, I'll carry on.

 

same here.im surprised i made it to 32.but it feels like time is up.ive known i was gonna die and it was gonna be my way.if i knew nobody would find me and save me id be gone

 

Lifes to long, the earlier the better.

 

Most definitely by my own hand,but the tobacco company's and distilleries have a hand in it as well,as well as a few black market merchants.It's all just a conspiracy to get rid of me,that I started.

 

Everyone goes through a "maybe I'll die young" phase. When it lasts and it's not just a phase, and you've even gone as far as to set suicide dates, that's a bit worrying.

 

I knew I would die young from an early age as well, and a liver disease pretty much guarantees it. Combine that with the amount of drugs I've taken and my increasing love of alcohol...? Well, yeah. I'm definitely going to cash in early. I know that I could probably extend my life by a few measly years if I quit the weed, the shrooms, the acid, the booze, the cigs...but I honestly don't care enough to do so.

I'm glad I don't need to be in this fucked up world any longer than necessary. The only downside is the fact that I'm under a bit of pressure to make my remaining years as awesome as they can possibly be. The downside is also the upside. It's kinda beautiful when you think about it.