I never used to have this problem, at least not to this extent.. And I dunno why I suddenly feel this way coz I KNOW I have no reason to. But I can't help it... I've known my boyfriend for over two years. We first got together about a year and a half ago, however the start was a bit rocky coz I wasn't sure what I wanted. But then I came to my senses and now we are living together, and I don't think I've ever been happier. We've even talked about getting engaged soon. But lately I've just felt so insecure about our relationship and his feelings for me. And like... why would he love me and want to spend the rest of his life with me? Even though I know he does love me, he treats me so well and and he's never given me any reason to doubt his love for me. And yet I still can't help but wonder why... It's so stupid. And his ex-girlfriend... They were together for over five years. She's this incredibly beautiful and intelligent and witty and everything-I-feel-I'm-not-kind of girl. I keep comparing myself to her and feeling like crap about it. The rational part of my brain knows I'm being ridicilous because he loves me, and no one else. He says I'm the best thing that's ever happened to him. But what do I do... I keep being stupid and paranoid. And I can't even talk about this to him because it's so ridicilous. I know I probably should. But I don't want him to see how whiny and insecure I am inside because they're such unattractive qualities in a person. And so I'm just driving myself insane inside my head. Argh... what to do?? I don't want to feel inferior and like how I'm not good enough for him because, again, the rational part of me knows that I AM good for him and that we're so good together. And I don't want my stupidity to ruin it... So what can I do? Any ideas?
"She's this incredibly beautiful and intelligent and witty and everything-I-feel-I'm-not-kind of girl." Alot of times individuals who on the surface seem flawless have some big flaws that they manage to cover up that people on the outside looking in cant see or contemplate until they get in, so maybe/prolly your BF has been there and seen those flaws and thats why he's with you. I wouldnt worry about it as much as you are, it seems like the ship has left the harbor and your on board and she's not.
If he loves you, he loves you. He doesn't need to justify his love for you, and in the long run your constant insecurity will do nothing but hurt him and possibly drive him away. Don't worry, be happy
