Important, please help

Okay , I've got kind of a big problem. I never was a drug user but out of nowhere I just started using a lot of psychedelics in a short period of time. Because I loved it, but wasn't aware of the side effects. Ecstasy, DOC (its like acid), Salvia, and 2-ci. But now I've had severe memory loss, I hallucinate a tiny bit here and there, have some schizophrenia symptoms and sometimes when I look in the mirror, I just look weird. Also, I get highs and lows like bipolar disorder. And when I'm low, I get really low. Shit is annoying. No one has said anything to me or gave me any weird looks, I think it might all be in my head, but I look in the mirror, think about the drugs and it bothers me.

I wasn't a heavy user AT ALL, it was just a short period of time that I was messing around with these things. Its just I'm just sensitive to that shit, like when I use to trip, I use to trip hard.

I haven't touched anything in over 2 months. My memory is getting better cuz I'm exercising my brain. I've even stopped smoking weed cuz I would feel like I'm on some hard psychedelic shit when I smoke. Do you think I can get these weird effects away with time and exercise? I don't want to have to go to a psychiatrist and get diagnosed with a disorder when its because of drug use. Its manageable, but I'm just recuperating and I don't want to see people I know in this weak state. Will it go away? What do you think?

 

Time heals man. I would suggest layin low for another month, drop a hit of acid and you'll be balanced.

 

No, no more drugs for a long time. I, too, felt similar symptoms a while ago and I stopped everything for almost a year. When I felt comfortable again, I smoked weed and everything was fine. I would suggest not doing acid or any other hardcore psychs again, but that's just what I would do. If you feel comfortable doing them, then do them if you want to. But a long break will do wonders for your state of mind.

 

It's called HPPD. You probably shouldn't have dropped in the first place. Give it a couple months. It should, very slowly, steadily get better. If you don't feel at least a little better within like 3 months, go to a psychiatrist.

 

sounds like what happened to a mate of mine after we had a real bad trip. messed him up for a while.. he stopped smokin weed and hanging out with us and tried to just go easy.. took him a few months but i think he's back to bein ok. just takes time and patience man.

just think of it as an acid trip.. eventually everything will be ok again, but until then you just need to go with the flow and chill.

and maybe no more drugs..

 

Okay, thanks so much. This support helps a lot. I definitely been getting better, but its a slow process.

I looooove psychedelic trips, I just wish there wasn't negative effects. I really regret doing it so much because I remember I was SO enlightened after trippin a couple times. It was amazing. But after doing it too much, I feel the exact opposite. This whole process recuperating is gonna suck, laying low, but Ima have to man up and deal with it.

My brain has gotten slower. Any suggestions on how to help this and my process as a whole? I'd appreciate it. Thanks so much.

 

Just stay off of all drugs for a while and you'll be fine. You might be able to get away with smoking pot on occasion, but any kind of drug use is gonna slow down your progress.

I suggest you find a hobby. Skateboarding in particular. You might find that it's better than drugs.

 

Snapple, it sounds like you didn't do any reasearch, then suddenly started taking a bunch of drugs. You say you 'didn't know the side effects', but then are kind enough to inform us that DOC is like acid . You still have much to learn.

Here's my question: do you at any point plan to properly research these drugs and take responsibility for your own mental health, or will you use these drugs and your ignorance about them as an excuse to either experience mental illness or pretend to? Psychiatrists may not be able to help you, and would likely place you on some really dangerous drugs. Educate yourself, man, or accept that you're not that bright. It's ok to be slow, just don't play the blame game.

edit: damn, that was harsh, but something is disturbing about your post, and I can't think of what it is that I didn't address. You didn't say, 'man up' or anything like that did you? If so, yeah, go to a doctor and if you're old enough, ask for rophynol, sigma sigma xxx.

 

Thanks 36fuckin5, I agree. The support helps a lot. Sheer, I actually researched the drugs intensely before I did each of them. The thing is there's not much info on DOC or 2-ci. But that doesn't even matter, I read about the effects of psychedelics and were aware of them. I was doing the drugs and was getting none at all so I figured I was okay to continue as much as I wanted, I felt like I could take it. Out of nowhere the effects just crept up on me. I do agree with what people are saying though, because I have been getting better. Thanks for your post.

 

Sounds a lot like HPPD. If I were you, I would just sober up for a few months and consider some meditation to calm down and control the mind.

Since it truly is all in your head, I would just make it a thing not to be worried about it (I know it's effecting you in many area's of your life, but being scared/fearing the side effects is probably the worst thing to do.. don't turn yourself into the enemy.. lol). It passes with time definitely.

 

yeah good call swoosh; it is extraordinary how resilient humans are with the proper mind control. sometimes your only choice is your attitude about a given thing, but that thing will feed off your attitude. there's been times when my brain and body chemistry were so fucked up I couldn't get my mind around the problem well enough to solve it. it is those times when I give myself up to the indiscriminate healing energy of the universe that is embedded inside me. it's amazing that out of despair and helplessness comes powerful strength and clarity when all we need to do is let it loose

 

Lol, I actually started meditating before I read this. I kind of like it too, I think I picked up a new hobby. Its almost like a sober psychedelic trip. Yeah, I'm starting to notice more that its all in my head because no one ever notices a difference. Shit is so weird to me though cuz this type of shit has never happen to me. And I jus use to look so weird in the mirror, its starting to go away though, so I'm happy. It helped to go out last night, I went to a lounge, drank a little and hung out with people. It showed me that noone really notices shit, that it really is in my head! Its crazy what brain damage can do, holy shit. I've learned my lesson. Thanks so much for the support to you and everyone, it helps a lot. The effect I don't regret about the trips is its effect on my perception of music. Oh man. I haven't tripped in shit, A LONG TIME, and music still just sounds CRAZY! I love it.

lol, in what ways were your brain and body chemistry fucked up?

 

^hahah from drug-combo binges

 

oh yes, take more drugs. these are the words of intelligence

 

Bipolar, your emotions go in cycles? You know your emotions are subsets of planets, which also go in cycles.

Laying around, lifeless, feeling lazy and not wanting to participate. This is only seen as a problem in the caffeine fueled economy of America. Where everyone thinks, anything the opposite of running around whirling knobs, or going at the keyboard or shuffling through paper all hyped up and worried is somehow wrong and to be avoided. If the hyper-caffeinated businessman was not seen as the sole owner of the "real" world I'd bet you things like bipolar diagnosis wouldn't exist. In a down portion? Why can't it just be lazy and wanting to rest for a week? I know personally for me, when I'm feeling up and on top of the world, I draw something, or make something. Then when I go down, it's not a problem, but is rather merely my time to reflect calmly and clearly upon what I did from a different perspective. You CAN learn your cycles and learn to utilize them, I think the idea that someone should be always in the same exterior projected mood is rather absurd myself. I believe going through cycles is ideal and actually completely natural and how it should be. You just have to find a balance and way to work your life in your own flow. And it's not a coping mechanism for a 'problem' at all, it simply sorting yourself out, everyone has to do it for many things they once thought were problems.

Also, don't fear the visual portion of your brain, the part that causes hallucination. Nothing it conjurs up ever has to worry you, it produces imagery with no intention other than to show you the various innate functions of your own mind and body. You don't have to respond with fear and anxiety, that only grows you more and more fearful and worried about it happening. Just respond with interest, a curious mind, laughter. I believe if you pay close enough attention anyone will find that there 'psychotic idiosyncracies' as psychology would probably say aren't crazy, random or anything of like. There simply reflections of your unconscious, its you being more aware of yourself as a whole. And you do not want to hold fear to any aspect of yourself, you know don't reject your own shadow. No one complains about good flashbacks, in fact they don't even call them flashbacks, they just call those a good day.

and sometimes you have to forget things to make room for new. Not everyone gets the be the same exact person there whole life.

definately don't smoke weed everyday though, that just keeps things hazy. Maybe like, every two weeks, just blast yourself with some fat bong rips and nearly trip off weed. Can often be very beneficial I find, you know sometimes you get to caught up in your thoughts and need to see a blank slate for a couple hours to get clear perspective again.

on a sidenote, in the recent year I've become very very fond of the simple little phrase "I don't believe in western psychology". Just cause it sounds sciencey and they claim to of measured some brain chemical doesn't mean they know a single thing about 'mind'. Be cautious of the DSM-IV, IMO it is simply bad meta-programming, nothing more

 

I think you answered all your own questions and you are a dumbass and you give responisible people who use psychedelics a bad name.

please get over yourself, what you have is a condition we call " learned lessons ", not brain damage.

 

there's no need to get angry with him

 

hey sorry about my post last night i was not my good natured self i suppose.

anywho, snapapple, just chill. you're not an extraordinary case who can't be helped. you seemed to talk yourself into a better mood just by writing your post, and so that's good stuff.

keepin it simple here, you aren't crazy, write your crazy thoughts and its called "creative" go with the flow. be yourself, do it balls-deep.

 

Okay, thanks to everyone for contributing, really, I appreciate it. I know I will get better with time.

But what my problem is now is being really down a lot (maybe lack of serotonin?), and I don't even want to get out of bed, yesterday I slept like 13 hours. How can I help this?

 

-Don't go to the doctor, all they will do is immediatly prescribe you anti-depressants, which is not the way to go.

-Just get healthy, what I mean is, you may not be eating correctly, wholesome foods, good meals, fruits, these all contribute to a healthy mind, brain food.

-You also should work out, it helps a lot with how you feel afterwards, and even if it's just a run.

-Go outside, it's horrible to stay inside for long periods of time, get some sun, be outdoors, take in fresh air.

-You can also pick up new hobbies to put your mind towards, helps to not think about things so much and gets the negative thoughts out of your head, like reading...hell read about psychdedelic drugs, maybe it would show you a better view on your new self.

-If you find all this still doesn't help, I'd suggest taking natural supplements like 5-htp which is unbelievable, and also omega-3 which is brain food in a pill.

Good luck to you, but really it's all about mindset..