EDIT!!! I had a big story up but it's over now, last night I finally fesssed up, I spilled my guts out. I told him I've liked him for almost 2 years now and it's killing me, he apologized and said there will never be an "Us" Billy, because like you I can't help who I am, and I'm straight. He was so cool about it though so I'm happy, I'm crushed, but he has helped me through alot. I told him it's gonna be akward around him now, he said "Why, all I see is you, not sexuality, not past, just you." God, I'm falling in love with this boy all over again. GRR!
that's beautiful, and seriously it's amazing of you to finally let your feelings out. i'm sorry things couldn't turn out the way you wished.
Yeah, I'm sorry too. I thought I might get lucky and have that fairytale relationship everyone dreams about but I suppose it wont happen to me. I love that he is so cool about it, and he talks to me even more now that I 'fessed up. If anything it strengthened our friendship.
you'll find someone new, though, and maybe that will be your fairytale relationship. just because it didn't work out with him doesn't mean that can't happen for you