im scared and weed takes my fear away. every aspect of living terrifies me and its coming to a point that i cant stand it. did you know that last night i cried? i dont even know why, i just hadn't been high for a whole 24 hours and i started becoming overwhelmed with fear for the upcoming school year and my parents and people and everything i knew. i am scared of life. somebody help me because i truly want to die. im terrified except for when im high. what do i do? i cant live my entire life high but i cant live my life in fear either. oh god, im so fucked. i can feel my mind swimming in my head. im really really scared, guys. what the hell is wrong with me?
It's ok. I feel like that sometimes, but not so much after I started smoking more often. Just sort out your things in life, don't put them off, do something, work around the house, anything to feel like you've done something useful. You said you were scared of school, I don't know if you're a good student or not but go through your binders and you'll gain confidence...think of what you will do in the future, but basically if you get your life sorted out theres nothing to be scared about anymore!
I get scared of everything in life sometimes too. Some of the things aren't without a cause, but I don't need to get into that. What helped me is, like Flav said, do something worthwhile. Help someone. Even if its just being nicer to your bro or something (I don't even know if you have one; just an example). Just little things so that if you weren't around you know that something good would be missed. I dunno if thats relevant to you. But good luck hun... life can be so frightening
Take a deep breath and relax, it'll be okay. You just got to realize that your in control. Mabey you should cut back on the weed, depending on a drug for happiness is never a good thing. If your feeling sucidal please get help! You wont always feel this way.
Like PeaceAttack said, it's good not to depend on drugs for happiness, that's when the confusion takes over and you get lost. The trick is to use drugs only when you're already happy enough, and proud about who you are and what you're doing with your life. Think of it as a privelage, not as an escape
I get scared of everything in life sometimes too. Some of the things aren't without a cause, but I don't need to get into that. What helped me is, like Flav said, do something worthwhile. Help someone. Even if its just being nicer to your bro or something (I don't even know if you have one; just an example). Just little things so that if you weren't around you know that something good would be missed. I dunno if thats relevant to you. But good luck hun... life can be so frightening
Life doesnt ever seem that daunting to me, it jsut seems like an adventure ahead of me. If im sober ill maybe get sad about longing for weed so much, wishing i didnt desire being high so much (caus being sober is sometimes so boring for me now), but i tend never to be scared of life. I get scared about relationships though. or jsut plain sad. thinking weed might be ruining my chances for relationships etc. anyway whatever happens all comes down to your belief. being a strong atheist, life is the most precious thing in teh world, despite how sad or hard it mgiht get, and nothing at all jsutifies death. suicide is the worst thing anyone can ever do, behind murder that is.
This is my opinion, but to me, being an atheist must be pretty sad. It's like admitting you live for no reason.
It is very sad. But it makes life worth much more, and it leads to a better understanding of everything, imo (that is, for true atheists, not kids who jsut dont wanna go to church and stuff). Evidently, this is the reason religion occurs at all, for our belief. Once you see what an atheist sees you either give in, and fidn a religion; or you can never follow a religion again, religions seeming like simply some silly tool for happiness and contentment. Ive fallen into the second category, and as much as it gets me down, it also gets me frustrated that other poeple get happiness from their religion, which i cant get, knowing waht i beleive is truth. But yeah this isnt the religion forum lol Being an atheist has made life the most precious thing in the world for me, and also has made the natural world become the most beautiful thing imaginable. when i was growing up as a christian, i never felt any of this amazing awe. But i also was able to pray and get rid of my worries. Or accept death, thinkning poeple were still watching form heaven.
to me, being an atheist is more like not saying 'oh God created it' ... it just seems more real and wonderful that it exists by chance one could say, but also for the very feeling of existence. I'm not sure I'm explaining this right, but pinning the reason for everything down on an almight god almost takes away from the fantasticalicity of it all. (that definitely should be a word) It totally depends on how and when I look at it though.. like as long as I don't get mixed up with obsessive 'bible thumpers' I can understand what people mean by 'god is love' and I understand that everything is one... and I'm sort of Buddhist... well now I'm rambling. I haven't sorted out my view on religion, and I don't know if I ever will. Maybe it changes as I change.
yer the fantasticalicity is waht its all about! hehe I think the morals tought in the bible are very true, but christianity makes out as though we should be good to please god, and to go to heaven, instead of being good simply caus it makes the world a better place.
The only time i got scared is when i skipped 1 month of school each year to play cs and got held back. I then realized it was one of the WORST mistakes i could have possibly done, now im fucked with school.
you sound pretty fucked up man. i'd sugest you try to get some real help. maybe try a school counselor or a teacher you know real well or even an adult you trust. i think turning for ganja to relieve your problems with life is just a temporary solution. you should try to find something more real to solve your problems and then i bet your notice how much better smoking herb will be, when you just smoke it for pure enjoyment instead of helping you cope with your daily burdens.
Man, I'm all for feeling good, but weed isn't gonna solve your problem. It's a temporary fix. You need to see a therepist or something (don't let them give you drugs, they just mask the problem). This will haunt you all your life unless you don't try to solve whatever problem(s) that are causing it. Tell this to your parents (leave out the part about smoking if you think you'll get in trouble, and save that for the therepist, first making sure they'll stay confidential...read whatever they have you sign). Don't let your parents just shrug this off, because your health is at stake here. Make it an issue. I'm serious man; I mean, it may be hard to bring it up, but it'd be harder living life that way. I wish you the best of luck
Just wanted to comment on this. That's not true at all. I mean, there may be no UNIVERSAL or ULTIMATE reason for me to be alive, but so what? What sane person bases their life on that? Don't most people focus on human-scale things, like friends, family, love, work, pets, nature, art, etc? I'm an atheist and I see life as the most glorious thing ever, think of how fortunate I am to even be here, against all odds, to be EXPERIENCING this world! The fact that it wasn't intended by some god makes it all the more unlikely, thus all the more special. Life is a gift to me. That's why I find it sad to see people like the OP saying they live in fear.
Nar man heaps of religious people consider their religion in like everything they do. Life is so underrated
Do not fret always thinking about tomorrow youll forget today and then tomorrow forget tomorrow in your thinking of the next day
yes and another thing related to that that deterred me in the first place is all the fear thats instilled in living in a good way. Like be good or you'll burn in hell... And there's a lot of violence between religious people who think their religion is better than others.. I prefer to be good and be happy with myself that I'm that way. Keep it simple without the added stress of 'oop didn't pray last night.' It's really hard anyway though. I guess I'm glad to not have been brought up going to church or religion in any way, so I can think about it without feeling sinful to doubt or 'lose faith' or anything. *shrug* to each their own. I suspect we all believe in the same thing if we see and celebrate love, however that manifests itself. Maybe we need to think objectively a little more... sorry though... this post is a little out of place. Marquee- if you wanna get out of that mindframe, absolutely nothing can stop you, except perhaps the unauthentic, impermanent escapes? ya can't float on those all your life hun, so sit down and sort yaself out. Try and find out why you're scared. That's what I'd try and do.
