i'm feeling pretty lonely lately

being a loner it's normal to feel lonely but i mean i'm feeling it in more aspects than one...

not the last time i did acid, but the time before that after that trip i felt the super lonely i only feel for a minute when i'm trapping my mind in a hole, but then i'm out of it. but it's been a lot.

last night my best friend got kicked out of his house and he stayed the night and he was telling me that he wants to go to either maine or connecticut, and if i would be mad if he left because i'm the only person he really cares about leaving and he was going to go to colorado with me.. so i was like man if that's what you want to do of course, being supportive, but now that when i leave here i wont have a thing.

starting over seems cool and all, but i want something with me haha.
i just need to rant sort of or whatever this is
it just sucks

all i do all day is go to work, go to school, light some incense, smoke some weed, and play some music.
i don't want to do it everyday anything more lol.
i even stopped hanging out with a lot of the people i did because they like acting the way they do and doing the things they do but i'm bored of it now.





braaaap wa wa wa

 

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dont be lonely razzle, you'll always have us. all i do is go to class, smoke weed, work, and sit at my computer and i somehow get by...sure im lonely too but i try not to let it bother me and just try to have fun when i do hang out with my friends. im pretty sure id go crazy if i didnt come here and talk to everyone here. i feel like things have a way of working themselves out if you dont stress and dont let the bad things get to you. weren't you the one like 2 weeks ago telling me i need to think positive

a box of rain will ease the pain and love will see you through

 

im kinda in your shoes, im probably going to move to another state after i graduate to where the metal scene is actually a good thing, by myself. but ill be able to go to shows and meet people and eventually start a band and be where im at here in delaware lol

 

an Raz.. us Scorpios... we find balance in having one great friend rather than wasting our time with a dozen good friends... i know all about the loneliness too.. it always creeps on me around this time... probably because the days are getting shorter.. giving us less time in the day to be out and about and not dwelling in our mind all day long.. but as the sun only shows its face for a couple hours a day now.. we are stuck in our house.. with nothing better to do than think.. i've had this loneliness going on now too.. and though i'm not really looking for someone.. i really have this urge sorta to be with someone right now.. friday im supposed to sorta hook up with this girl that found me very interesting the other day.. i really need to check myself.. and make sure i make it clear to this girl that i do not know if i intend to be in a relationship.. because like you.. i wanna move.. and Colorado seems to be the spot...

i also know about the last friend moving thing.. my best friend moved back to his home town of St. Louis when he was done with school.. it sucks that he moved so far away... but now i second guess the relation between me and him since when he was up here at the end of the month he txted me one day to call him... i called and he never even called me back when he was up here.. it left me a lil salty.. as im sure you can imagine.. being in the same astrological boat as i...

but fret not razzle.. everything will be fine.. us Scorpios are strong by ourselves.. more so than when we are around people

 

im a scorpio as well lol

 

im a Scorpio with a Pisces Moon and Sagittarius rising... pretty dynamic combination

 

where can i go to find all that kinda stuff out? i just know im a scorpio cus my bdays in the beginning of november

 

you need to know your exact time you were born to find out any of the other stuff.. i think i just used astrology.com to figure it all out and then google my results to get full explanations instead of astrology.com's sample readings

 

ahhh ok..ill have to look into that stuff sometime, im really interested in all that kinda shit

 

I am a Scorpio, I am sorry your having a stuff time things will get better

 

Sucks, man.

There is a fine line between being alone and being lonely.

 

I feel ya, all my best friends are scattered about, I have 3 core friends that span from Chicago to Maine. I always get the lonely aching feeling when things get too routine, wake up, school, work, sleep, over and over.
Butttt, I have been making an effort to be social atleast once a week, and it's been working really well, every wednesday I go to the same open mic and that's something I really look forward too after a long day at work and school.

 

dave- i love you


life- yeah i mean i'm not trying to go anywhere with a metal scene, there's enough here... and i already been there done that. when i'm done this year in college i do want to leave but $ when i get it i use it, i suck at saving.



joker-
yes that makes a lot of sense. i'm not exactly looking, going out of my way to look, but i'd like to know what's out there. i can't really meet anyone that is anything like me or that can understand me, except for my best friend (the one who said he wants to leave) yeah colorado just seems like a calling, i've never been there but i want to go visit first and see if it's all i imagine it to be, i've lived in jersey and in europe my entire life so i don't know much else.

 

yah and the line has been crossed






stella-
yeah see lennon has been my best friend for the last 5 years... we did have a break while i was in my last relationship because he wouldn't let me talk to anyone, but lennon is the only person who i really trust and who knows me and i know him. i don't have much time to do the social things at my school, they're all lame for the most part. pitbull is playing there... woo... but if there's something that really catches my eye i'd go and meet new people, but see i don't know if i should especially if i want to leave soon lol. confusing. sucksters.

 

Paint your own lines. Drive on the shoulder.

 

i ride my bike in the middle

 

I know how it is, besides the weekend I don't really do shit besides sit here on HF. Aint got no job to take up my time either. I need one... SOMETHING to do

 

As long it's your middle.

And not the man's middle.

 

@razzle.. never been out there either.. but i have a calling to move to Ft. Collins.. there.. looks amazing and there is tons of opportunity out there for me.. with over a 100 restaurant in the city.. and rent seems rather reasonable

PS: no one every truly understands a scorpio.. its part of what we are to keep most of our life a complete secret and keep our thoughts to ourselves.. its our nature to not let people understand us