i wish i was still

like i was
when i had an eating disorder






i'm looking at the pictures
i look happy

 

If one more girl I know gets some sort of eating disorder, I'm going to smoke myself retarded.

 

that's sad micha.don't say that

 

i'm sorry

 

haha i know i know
but its true
happy pictures
they're so HAPPY

and pretty..

 

no. Your beautiful , and i don't even know what you look like. But i still think your thoughts are the most perfect thing i'v ever seen

 

my thoughts have you been spying on me?

 

Eating disorders are not cool. I advise you to eat normally, Micha. If not for yourself, do it for your favorite bird.

 

mayyybbbeeee......:&

 

i know i know
but i don't really....have it anymore though? if that makes any sense at all?
don't worry
well like idunno...food-wise i don't have it but mentally i suppose i still do. ya
so don't worry about my bodily health

 

Maybe you only look happy in those pictures because you were so unhappy knowing you were sick that while the picture was being taken you put on a happy face knowing that if in the picture you look happy than you must really be happy. And now, you forgot that, so you are looking back thinking how happy you were.

 

Okay, I will do my best to stop worrying about your bodily health, but I am still a bit worried about your mental health.
If you need a shoulder to lean on or an arm to cry on feel free to let me know.

Love, your caring bird.

 

no, i'm pretty sure i remember being happy

will power does wonders

 

pictures always look happy in retrospect.

 

So you can't be happy without some sort of will power game with yourself?

 

nah.

well i don't know

i think i need help but i don't know how i can really get it

 

bummer. actually, i could probably use to lose a couple pounds myself now.

 

:H you seem to be doing a preety calorie-burning dance in your picture spooner

 

haha that was when i was 17... the beers tend to catch up to you.

 

blaaaah micha. i know whatcha mean...