I have become a monster

I never used to be this way, but now I have become impatient with others, unforgiving, temperamental, frustrated, all to easily annoyed, etc. I have grown a cold, hard shell against a few persons. I am, by no means, proud of this. These aren't character traits I enjoy having. I have been around incompetent people too long, and this is the outcome. My anger towards others is triggered into a cussing rage that serves as a relief to built up frustration. I will exercise to blow off steam, but for me, that doesn't work right there on the spot. It only gives me time to ponder over a certain someone that has royally angered me.

I'm afraid my temper will rise to a physical level. I'm beginning to understand more and more why people become murderous in an angered rage. And sometimes, the thought is all too nice..

 

Chill the fuck out.

Easier said than done, I know.

 

sounds like my state of mind around my friends at the moment

 

Too much dope.

 

Maybe your'e smarter than most poeple. give people a break. Get used to the world not working the way you want it to.

 

Just for the record, I'm not on dope. I don't do drugs, nor will I ever. That's not how I want to live my life.

Moodswings, perhaps so..but I'm sure there is more to it then that.

Thirdly, I'll be the first to admit that i'm no smarter than any other being on this earth.

I wasn't seeking an answer when I posted this thread >in the long run, i'm the only one who can find the answer to my "situation"<, nor did I want sympathy, that will get me nowhere. I was only expressing my feelings. Thank you for your time though.

 

those who feel see the world as a tragedy, those who think see it as a comedy.......


try to feel less, you'll appreciate it more

conversely if this is not an option, get used to it, drop some cynicism, choose to be more warm, emotions are completly controllable things.....

 

you don't do drugs so you don't have an excuse. You just think you're the shit...go get into a fight and maybe that will straighten your too coolness out.
You're not a monster either.

 

Or he'll kill somebody someday .

 

Well, by posting on the internet, you are inviting all sorts of responses. I do think you are smarter than average, unless it took you more than 30 min to type that post.