i hate myself and the way i look, i hate my brain and my body. i want to know a good way to have an eating disorder without anyone finding out. i also sometimes wish i could go to sleep and sleep for a thousand years. when i wake up things would be different and i could be happy, i dont know waht its like to just be happy and not always worry.
I know what you mean when you say you want to sleep for a thousand years. But why do you want to have an eating disorder? It'll screw up your life. Even if you think your life is warped now, an self-induced eating disorder will really, really mess everything up. You can't help yourself stop feeling like this if you go out of your way to make things even worse for yourself. Everyone, no matter who, has hated the way they look at one point. It's human nature, especially in women. Look at the examples we see everyday. And honestly, I still have no idea what it's like to be happy everyday.
i know i shouldnt think the way i do, but i just cant help it. i honestly cant remember what its like to be truely happy even when i was a child.
I don't have tons of happy memories from when I was little either. You don't have to look to memories to be happy. There are things in life that will make you much happier than memories ever could. You just have to look. And sometimes you really have to look through all the dirt on the windows to see the good in life.
i agree 100% memories if anything can make you more depressed. it is what you do or can do on a day to day basis that will help you recover and feel better in the long run.
