I feel like k-k-k-killing

Not literally, but I do I hate noise today and all I hear is noise noise noise. Kids laughing, dogs clicking their nails on the floor, planes flying overhead... what the f-f-f-f-f-fuck is wrong with me?


I've also had my fill of ass-kissy HF posters today as well.

& I'm a little angry at the British for no particular reason.

 

ah, go fuck in a tundra

 

I get that way sometimes , where it feels like everything is just making me crazy....thats where meditation helps a lot...and calms me down.

 

Cotton Wool Stuffed in Ears?

 

meditation would be good... Dr Phil is reminding me that my life isnt so bad right at this moment... and its also helping.


Fucking in tundra may hurt... its jagged.

 

I have xanax if you want

 

nope, I'm off the junk.

 

Ive never tried it , but i hear the name a lot...does it realy work ?.......i try to stay away from medicating myself for stress

 

me too, i have a prescription for lorazepam that I have yet to pick up (since March)


But I can see it really taking the edge off.

 

i finally had to take one. i hate those fucking xanax. but SOMEONE was gonna die, and although i'm not positive right now, i think i might feel bad about it later.

 

you could give me a bath, that'll help you relax

 

yeah, it works right away, but it's only temporary. slows your heart rate, mellows you down, you're calm, you're chillin, even if the world is falling apart around you. which can be scary, you gotta have SOME stress sometimes, not be a vegetable, which is what you basically become on benzos. they help with sleep, too. they make me thirsty. on heavy doses you can not remember things... or you can just pass out... or die... it can be dangerous. it's also highly addictive and not to be given to idiots, obviously, but smart adults who actually need them. some people think they get high off them, but all they do is make you a talking marshmallow who will feel super horny and fuck pathetically. like.. drunk, in a way. I take one once in a while in cases if intense stress, or panic, which I get sometimes in crowds or situations where I have to do a lot of planning. I am not ashamed to say I used to try and die with them, which was, of course, pointless. I just passed out for days in a row. I was once immature and desperate. those times are, my friends, over

 

Geez youre acting like taking a xanax is akin to shooting up

 

I Guess i have been fortunate , i dont think i have ever been under enough stress to be honest about needing to take anything for it........

 

to some people, sadly, it is

not me

 

Why did my post have like 5 lines of writing I didnt type..

 

because I tried to quote your post and clicked edit by accident

I fixed it super fast though, you're supermegafast then!!

 

i hate xanax. but i must confess, it does have it's uses.

 

Maybe I should pick up my Loraz ... I thought it would interfere with my drinking too much.

 

it will...