i feel like i want to die sometimes

i am 16, i have no friends i meet up with, no qualifications, i hate where i live so i dont go out, i get very depressed sometimes, i am distrustful, i hate lots of people, i do all this, and i dont know why, i want an answer, i have a great family, maybe it runs in my family, two of my great grand mothers tried to kill themselves, i know where i want to be in a year, but i have am not sure i will get there, ha maybe this is just because i am near my time of the month, but i feel like this anyway, it just gets worse at this time, i know that i can be a great person, i dont hate myself, hell i can be damn vain sometimes, i just hate my life sometimes, i am shy, sometimes i think i even want to be unhappy, i know i have minor mental problems, nothing major, but enough, i am ashemed of things i did in the past, i know many many people have it much worse then i do, but this is how i feel, a small cut still hurts.

i just wanted to get this out of me, thanks.

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im the same, 99% of what you said... not the time of month thing. but i know where your coming from, i feel exactly the same. things will get better in time, go to college, get a qualification, turn 18, move away, start a fresh life somewhere nice. this is motivating me, if i knew this was impossible i would cut my throat out now.
future is my wish, for now my life trully sucks.

 

thanks its nice to know im not alone if this.

thing is i learn at home, so im not going to go to collage, but there are some home courses i might do, plus when the place where i will move too has got lots of jobs that i could do, with help from friends.

you and me will get to where we want.

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wow, sorry alot of that did'nt make much sense...


*alone IN this.

*plus the place i want to move to has lots of jobs that i could do, with help from friends.

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I think everyone goes through it really be it a high school kid worried aobut the futre, grades, love life ect, a college kid worried about grades, jobs money, a graduate worried about jobs, friends, love, life money ect, a person period. There are alot of things to consider in life, alot of expectations others might put on you that you feel obligated to fullfill ect.

Try looking at the basics. Food (do you get to eat, might not be what you like to eat but are you eating) Do you have a means to stay warm and dry. ( does not have to be some nice house but a place a small something that shelters you) and last is there things in your life that make you happy. If you have that your doing good. Any improvements you can make on any of them is bonus.

 

Despite all of the problems that you say that you have, you seem like a very sweet person.

There are two types of reactions to confusing times:

1) Being offensive; cruel to others; takes anger out on others.
2) Being defensive; most of the anger is kept in and is rarely ever used to hurt someone else, but to protect yourself.

I think you fall under category number two. I was like that once, but it passes. One thing that you should know is that at least the only person that you harm is yourself, and I think that says a lot about your character, and it says that you have a good heart, just a little lost is all. But don't worry, if you keep a good attitude, then you will definitely overcome all of this and when you do, you will realize your potential, and you will realize how good of a person that you really are.


Good luck to you and don't worry. The great thing about life is that you are able to choose your attitude at any moment within your life. You can choose your reaction to absolutely any situation, and I think you have this in you to make it so.

 

Maybe this death feeling is just figurative for sadness. Sometimes, we can all feel a bit down. Nothing unusual about it.

 

your post really ment something to me

thank you.

im afriad i do take my anger out on my family sometimes, my mother mainly, but thats partly because i have a few issues with her.

truely i was moved almost to tears by your post, i know that i am a good person inside, but it is amazingly reasuring when someone else says it like you did, i cannot thank you enough.

blessings and merry yule.

thank you again

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Hey spirit of the night You sound like a really nice person, i say you find someone who you can really talk to, either online or real life. Ive seen it happen to other people and myself and dont think your the only one experiencing it, we all have troubles
Dont let the evil world get you down.

 

thank you so much, you are the really nice people for reading and commenting on my post with such kind words!

i was kind of worried about posting this thread, but you have all been really supportive and reassuring

thankfully my depression has gone, for the time being, it comes and goes, but right now it is not with me.


thank you everyone!

blessings and love
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I've been there too, it get's better. However, I gotta agree with your statement on people, most of them are bad people. And you really sound like a nice person, except you have to get rid of been shy, I used to be like that(still am depending on which person I'm talking) but most of the time it's fine. Don't worry.

 

thanks, yh i am sooo shy sometimes, it has actually gotten alot better over the years, but there is always room for improvement.

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People have a way of making shyness be seen as some kind of evil.

Don't worry about it.

For me, shyness stems from my unwillingness to be forced a relationship. Relationships should never be put on you by force. Otherwise, it isn't natural, nor is it a relationship.

It's one thing by being haughty, and another thing to not feel obligated towards a relationship.

 

your right, things that are forced are not natural and they just fail.

i think my shyness comes from my dad, me and him are very similar, and he used to be very shy, still would rather sit at home than go to a party.

plus its more that i am afraid of what people will think of me, so i dont give them anything to judge. its mainly a self esteem thing, insecurity.

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Depends on the shyness. Some shy away from relationships because they don't feel natural, and some shy away from social situations.

If you're insecure, it may come from not knowing what you want to do, or ought to do in life, and for that I recommend that you read something that I myself, found helpful.

http://www.amazon.com/Mans-Search-Meaning-Viktor-Frankl/dp/0671023373

It may help.

 

EXACTLY! Very nicely put

 

lol thanks


the book looks amazing, i definitely have a look at it, thank you

happy yule!

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I went through the same things and now im better. I started writing my feelings down because it would feel so much better after i would get everything out. Then i would think positive with everything i did. If i looked like shit i would still be positive and say i looked great. Try looking at things different. Start hanging out with people, go out more. I hate where i live but i still find things to do, things that make me happy. Your still young and have a long way to go. I promise things will get better you just have to give it time.

 

i keep a diary, it does help when its all written down and out of you.

thanks

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