i have come to terms with the fact that i'm a lesbian just two years ago after years of being confused and ashamed.. now that i've accepted it, i don't feel any pride or connection to it. i don't want to sound corny like "seeing wlw stuff makes me sad", i don't feel sad, i just don't feel what i'm supposed to... i don't feel anything. i get confused and even angry/jealous seeing other lesbians freely express their love for women, both romantically and sexually. i just feel nothing, but i know i would never date or have sex with a man. i thought maybe it has to do with my mental health—i feel disconnected from pretty much everything, including my own body. i also struggle with depression and maintaining relationships, i have no experience with women outside of playful flirting. then i also considered that i could be aroace, but that just makes me a little sad.. because even despite being aroace, i should still take pride in being a lesbian and adoring women. why don't i feel it? why don't i feel anything? i'd like some advice, please.. i don't know why i've gone from confused to just feeling empty... not once have i not felt alienated in the lesbian community.
Ny dear, It sounds like you a depressed. Pleaze seek professional help. They can use counseling and medicine to help you. You have enough clues that it is depression and tge sooner you seek assistance, the better. Peace and love, Mark
