...of death. I am so freakishly scared that I've forced myself to talk to my parents about it... several times in the past year, and it's still unresolved. It's something i think about more and more as time progresses. I used to face it by almost taunting it... drinking too much, smoking as many cigarettes as I could, mushrooms, cough syrup, you know, anything a silly ballsy 16 year old could think of. But these days I appreciate life so much I'm terrified of losing it. I don't do any of those things anymore, with the exception of social drinking. I am as healthy as ever, and often regret smoking cigarettes.... gosh, paranoia forum maybe, instead. That's it. Afraid to die.
well, what scares you about dying? the possibility of a negative after life? or the possibility of none at all? or maybe something else?
Death is the only thing that you know for sure will happen in your life. Also, it comes to all families. First its the grandparents, then your parents and eventually it becomes you yourself in the firing line. I feel that life can pass us by fairly quickly, so it's best to make the most of it as you never know when you're gonna go. Fascinating subject. Oh yeah, I am 44
ahh bless you.. that is such a cool thing to say and put out there.. i often blurt out to near starngers sometimes.. 'are you looking forward to dying?' or 'do you fear death?' and the response is so sudden.. people really reply to that, they dont think.. what a wierd question.. i mean we are all going to die but were just all at different levels of acceptance...som clearly lower or higher than others.. some people dont even realise it.. how wired is that??!! playing with death.. the drugs and systematic destruction could be a sign that you do need to talk about it.. there s too mich spectaculare to miss than not having expressed to poepe the intensity of your feelings.. be intense. be it.. dont worry about what you say, you could say anything, and it would never matter.. step into freedom, say the things that poeple are afraid of.. say the thigns that people are afraid of.. youre simply notcing what needs to be expressed in the world.. so go for it.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! life doesnt end at death. ddeath is a door to a wider understanding... i swear this is true.
