homiocidal thoughts

I keep having homicidal thoughts. This world pisses me off and brings me down. I'm having dreams of being a criminal and hurting/killing people. I kinda fear telling this to a psychologist cause they might lock me up and that's the worst thing in the world. Can anyone give me any advice?

 

I think the best advice someone can give you is to go to your local drug dealer and make a purchase of a little bit of herb.

Everyone feels like going on a killing spree just because people are f***ing retards and assholes, but herb kind of makes it better. I'm definately a lot less stressed about people now that I started smoking.

But don't worry, you're not the first person to hate people enough to want to kill them most of the time. Just try to remember: it's not their fault they're stupid, it's the result of 5 millennia of stupidity all compounding on itself to produce the immense stupidity of today. They can barely help but be stupid.

 

Uhh, no, dont take ANY drugs . . . Tell a doctor. They dont lock you up. Not unless you ask them too or you become violent.

 

go live in a forest for a month or 2.. thats how i get free sometimes.. i ususaly don't live there for 2 months but spending a weekend or something... good stuff

 

If you stick to killing child rapists, animal abusers and all around dirt-bags, I don't have a problem with it.

 

Well I do hate child rapists like that punk rock star GG Allin, and I hate rednecks and so many other things. Too many to lists. I try and find something positive to do to keep myself out of trouble

 

Thats the thing, man. Its not about yourself, or keeping yourself out of trouble. Its about doing postitive things for others. If other people don't do that, its not something to hate them for, just keep doing better than they do.

 

I'm can only worry about me because I feel like all I got is me. It seems like no one gives a fuck about me. I've been raised around hatred and treated with violence basically my whole life. I went to a rich school when I was in grade, junior high, and part of high school until I got expelled and the kids would always pick fights with me because I didn't drive a fancy car or where abercrombie, stupid shit like that; so sometimes I had to do it. Right now I feel like I fucked up man wanting to straighten up his life, but just can't. I don't know why. I have doubts about ever getting married, losing my virginity, or having one last relationship with a girl. Maybe love can kill this disease, but until that time all I can feel is hate, anger, and depression.

 

Look at at your life in terms of yourself, not others. It'll allow you to be alot happier. If you evaluate the quality of your life based on other people in a world where nearly everyone is a worthless asshole, then of course you'll be depressed and angry. You just have to realize that the attitudes and opinions of those assholes can be discarded and ignored easily. So kids gave you shit in school. . . so what? You know their opinions about you are flat-out ignorant and wrong, so don't let them get to you. You know you are a million times better than those people, who can't have their own opinions, and therefore pick on those who can. Spending some time in the woods, as somebody suggested, would probably be a great idea; it would allow you to think about yourself instead of the hatred and stupidity of the rest of the world.

 

I'm thinking of going on a road trip this summer. I'd say that I'm a nihilist. I was wondering if you're into philosophy because for some reason that makes me feel better. It's a consolation for me instead of religion. Well if you'd like to chat pm me.

 

Hey, man, I'll chat philosophy with you, anytime. =) I'd PM you, but I have a few things to do ... just PM me sometime before I'm done, aye? =P

Philosophy. Philo sophia. Love of wisdom. If you seek wisdom, you will become wise, and you will be ultimately happier through your wisdom. =)

 

You need to seek help, it's not healthy to have those type of feelings, which I'm sure you already know. I think that with today's HIPAA (Health Insurance Portability and Accountability Act) obsession that protects you from any release of information unless you give written permission, if you spoke to counselor or pyschiatrist, unless they deemed you severely dangerous, they shouldn't be able to release any of your personal information to have you commited somewhere against your will. That would be a violation of your rights. But I'm not 100% sure, so don't quote me on that. All I know is that your have your patient rights to confidentiality. Check into your options, and really think about talking to someone.

{{{HUGS}}}

 

where i live you can FEEL whatever you want and tell a psychiatrist(sp?) and they aren't allowed to divulge any imformation unless they truely believe you are likely to commit a violent crime...

and joker I dont think it's abnormal to have violent fantasies most people do when they are stressed angry sad or whatever, so long as you can control your compulsions these fantasies do not make you a bad person, they're just away of your mind coming to terms with things. of course having said all this if you feel as though you might want to follow these compulsions you should seek help.


Hikky Z, herb is you solution to everything isn't it?

 

joker? are you the one wondering why women call you a scumbag? i forget who that

chill........................................

 

i don't care about being called a scumbag because 90% of the people i've meet in life a assholes and bitches.

 

"i don't care about being called a scumbag because 90% of the people i've meet in life a assholes and bitches."

wow that is a high % that would make anyone bitter. i'd say for me it is maybe 40% if not lower...

perspective always has alot to do with it...

 

Look I know I'm not like other people. I can't have pride in my country and work a job. i think i may just live off of social security for the rest of my life. i can't put any of my jobs down on an application when i go apply for a job cause i haven't kept one for over a month. i'm convinced that most people don't give a shit about people with bi-polar.

 

hey dont worry i know the difficulty of obtaining a job when you are suffering illness, i can't say i have bi-polar or say i know how it would effect the way i relate to people.

but maybe if you could some how allow yourself a more positive perspective, it would allow you to relate to people easier giving you the social activity that you crave?

 

well i've posted some shit up in my thread "stop looking for friends and girlfriends" u might wanna check it out. but i have to say that crackforkids is a bitch.

 

thankies
but hey i have bi-polar and i dont have those feelings, joker....

its called life, you gotta suck it up and live it, i have been diagnosed all types of crazy and been on hundreds (well not HUNDREDS) of meds and i still hold a jhob, i hate it, but its life. this post really infuriates me cause we are having such a problem with social security now and you wanna mooch off uncle sam the rest of your life, im sorry pal but thats not fair to the rest of us. think about what your saying.