he invited himself over to make dinner for me tomorrow. why am i doing this to myself again? we were hanging out tonight, and once again he started flirting with some young 20ish hippy-ish grrl. continueing on with this drama is the exact opposite of letting go, right? i think that sometime i'm going to have to actually stop letting him be a part of my life.
Men, eh! Tsk. One would almost think you were attracted to this person unconciously, as if...say...his behaviour, infuriating as it may be,...is also attracting you? Hmmmmm.. Never known women do that before. Fortunately, for you, you're a Capricorn. You can do anything, baby!
riiiiight, including holding on when i should be letting go, apparently. ps, you might be right about the being attracted to bad behaviour thing too. when i look at the situation under that light, it makes me feel realllllly immature. i thought that i was past that liking the 'bad boy' thing.
What capricorn, geminus, cornbread does this have to do with anything? And if you know what's bothering you, why are you whining and not trying in the least to prevent it?
do you really want to know? i was dealing with depression over the winter months. i have a child who needs a lot of my time/energy, and honestly i've been living in some sort of fairy tale where my husband is going to magically turn into my knight in shining armour and try to meet at least some of my needs. bwa ha ha ha. yeah, anyways, dinner went exactly the same way that everything else goes with him.
nice edit. i'm not whining, i'm venting. and i am trying to prevent it. we've been separated for almost 6 months. and i think i'm about done with giving us more chances to make it work. i didnt ever want to look back and think that we had given up too easily.
So he is your husband but you're separated for the time, and just trying to give it a last shot when he starts to flirt with a younger woman? I'm sorry about this, and the harshness of the previous posts. I understand about wanting to leave but doing it with no regrets. I hate that feeling where I'm waiting for something, just something, to finally break the camel's back, and it turns into a rollercoaster waiting game. I hope you do finally find that last straw soon, if it's not this incident. (if not for you, then for your child).
