I ought to be dropping out of school! I hate my college, my heart is not in my education, I am not doing my homework and I am cheating myself terribly out of a very beautiful thing! I didn't get to make a record last week because no one else in my band apparently has any resolve or initiative! I have writer's block! There is no hot water so I have to take cold showers! I have a cough! I have an unmanageabe oral fixation that has convinced me I'm addicted to nicotine! I'm revisiting the forums I used to frequent while I was a depressed and awkward teenager! I recently had sex with my best friends boyfriend, and my best friend (that was when I stopped doing the homework) but realized that I can'tmanage to have meaningless sex with anyone, and the only boy I ENJOY fucking in this fucking state has ran away to California, and because he left, I have to fill in and play with his rock band in a bar next weekend! I have been smoking a LOT OF POT LATELY and I have not been brushing my teeth every night! I lied about spraining my ankle when I missed a meeting! I have been saying incredibly heartless and cruel things about the undeniably inane stories my peers have been contributing to my short story writing class! Sometimes I hate my roommate; I always hate her boyfriend. They just came home with taco bell? Hmm, I feel slightly better. I'll think about dachsunds, pennywhistles, wild rhodedendrons, popsicles, spring time, danny . . . what? danny bing crosby's co-star from white christmas, the tap dancer. love 'im. Alan Alda, rubber chickens, grocrery stores. . . okay, all great things. Badminton, onomatopoeias, litotes, synecdoches, darts (sewing and throwing) tin foil, pears, and masking tape. Woo!
Damn that sounds CRAZY man!!!! You sound like you could win a thought relay race.. In any case its good to see you.. Do what you think is rational for your situation, and that makes your heart most content.. Have fun! eat taco bell!! its good for you.. im just kidding.. But yeah.. Gnarly.. I like that grocery store is on the list.. hahaha! If you want to talk just Pm me!
I just wondered, not too long ago, what you were up to, lately. And yes, that's a helluva alot of thinking going on... and I can taste the morning breath... blegh. So I too need to brush my teeth, so say.... to some extent, we're in the same boat here, eh? Time for a bowl of the weedies. And... I've never really been one to promote meaningless sex. The more meaningless it is at present time, the less meaning it will have later... but the thoughts are controlled by two different parts of the brain, contingent upon wether there's any attachment involved. Weirdness
hey the world is okay, it's not raining so hard, I'm going to india class, i've got the crossword but haven't a pen.
I need to start getting in on more crosswords. They need to put a crossword puzzle in every High Times, because the Marley one for April is rather dank. And man... I've got hundreds of pens. Wish I could give you one.
Or it would turn everything to slush and turn into black ice, melt, refreeze... or possibly just cause an ice storm. That's what happens alot here, in warmer climates.
I feel the same way sometimes... I don't like school. I hate it. I have no interest in it. The only reason I do it is because my parents bug me about it. My mom doesn't want me to drop, so I keep going just to get her not to bug me. I have no idea what I want to do. No profession seems like it would make me happy. The future is blurry and uninteresting... But on the plus side, outside of school the presant is pretty cool.
fook college, yo.... a few people here dropped out within the last 2 or 3 years, and i'm just not going because i'll end up doing the same. it is better to be free :H
Learning and college are almost polar opposites. While a pointless degree which will gain you a job and college are rather connected.
i'm thinking of dropping out too...i can relate to alot of what you're saying...for my oral fixation i got a tongue ring..it's fun hope you can work things out..i'll listen if you ever want to talk
I'm on my way to an english degree with gender/religious studies minors at a liberal arts school. Trust me, these are not pointless degrees which will land me jobs. They are all, however, inevitably frustrating, static, depressing, and maddening pursuits. I think there's a ghost at my window.
"I have never let my schooling interfere with my education." - Mark Twain Alot of the most intelligent people I've ever met had problems with school. Liberal arts is probably the worst thing you could go into these days, as far as job availability and starting out goes. Engineering and economics probably being the two best. If not audio engineering, I'd probably go for the liberal arts thing too... I really could care less about job availability in one region/area and how much I'm starting out at.
