Wow, your thinking about committing suicide? That is a totally selfish act. I mean think about it. Then who's going to do my laundry and wash the dishes? I think you just need to get out for a while. My car could use a good vacuuming and wash.
I dont wanna rain on your parade, but suicide is sooooooo last week. This week "Dyslexic Anorexia" is all the rage.