OK guys I've got a question regarding psychedelics. I've never done any because of this fear I have for them. Also, the depression and anxiety and all that jazz. Just the general fear of losing control or losing my mind. On the other hand, I have always been fascinated by them, of their potential to ''change'' me and help me see things from a different perspective. Recenlty I'm really thinking that the depression and anxiety are ironically caused by the attempt to control everything. Repressing everything, avoiding fear, avoiding sadness, instead of just accepting it and living through these emotions and such. I have a feeling that ''losing my mind'' on psychedelics might help me see that sometimes if youre looking for your soul, maybe losing your mind isnt such a bad idea... What do you guys think? Also, in your opinions, what drug should I take? where should I start? (FYI I can get pretty much anything)
LSD has been used to try and treat depression, anxiety, and various other mental "disorders" for the past 50+ years. While it hasn't always worked, it's had some very positive results. That being said, it's not necessarily something one uses to medicate or fix themselves. The experience is largely based on the person and what is going on with them. It can help you see things from a new perspective, a point of view that for whatever reason you couldn't see before. Whatever is going on on the inside will come out if you decide to use most psychedelics, be sure of that. First you should be comfortable with this idea and the fact that you may face things about yourself that in a sober state of mind you'd rather not face. You may become afraid or very depressed or sad, but that can just be part of the experience of dealing with and letting go of needless things we carry around inside. It can help purge you of certain things. If you do decide to use, just be sure to have a really good, trustworthy friend or two present and read up a little first. Lastly, you will not lose your mind. There have been many horror stories circulated about psychedelics, LSD in particular and for the most part they are nothing but conservative propaganda. You will not lose your mind, you will come back, a little different, usually for the better, but you'll be just fine.
I'd say focus on this awhile. While I have nothing against using LSD to help with such things I think it is best to work it out under your own power, if possible.
Yep, I've actually started doing mindfullness meditation to get in touch with that stuff. I was hoping some psychedelic may be able to give me a boost but i'll follow your advice for now. I've had a fair amount of tragedy in my life, yet I havent cried since childhood (im 25 now) That just can't be healthy!
well follow what you feel is right for you, not something i said, just because. While I doubt your doing the latter, I feel obligated to say it. I have found LSD to be beneficial when dealing with personal problems, getting a good judge of my character from an outside but yet still personal perspective. Hmm, that makes little literal sense but, i hope you get the picture. I have really no experience in using LSD as a means to reconcile or come to terms with anything that was done to me or what i perceived (usually selfishly) as such. That being said... I realize just now that in some way maybe i do have such experience. If i am upset at something someone has done to me, am I taking that persons situation into consideration, or am I only thinking of myself? Am I aware that something is bothering said person that I can help them with, or am I only concentrated on how their reaction to an emotion/sensation has affected me. In know way am i saying your situation is anything like that one, nor am I trying to belittle yours. I have no knowledge of it, so to do so would be careless and ignorant. However, I feel that is a good example, it's something I have come to be more mindful of.
Just be honest to yourself why you want to try it. There is absolutely nothing wrong with just saying I want to experiment or even am looking for a deeper experience. As Soul Vibrations mentioned, I wouldn't try to use them to self medicate though. They can certainly have medicinal properties but its often not a high probability unless the setting is really controlled. Once you get 'used' to the headspace maybe you can try to use them medicinally and sometimes therapeutic answers will come without that ever being your intent anyways. I think mushrooms are a better place to start, may be a little more reliable, possibly teach you quicker initially to respect these plants and chemicals and have the whole deeper 'mystical' aspect cause they're natural and been used for thousands of years by humans. Just cause they're natural doesnt make it a better trip than LSD or others necessarily but that's what I reccommend.
Mushrooms made me realize the true nature of emotions. I won't go into that here because its a personal thing that not everyone is going to find to be true, but I will say that psychedelics have the potential to open yourself up in a way that enables you to better process your emotional response to external stimuli. Its often said that psychedelics should be taken when in the best state of mind possible. I don't neccessarily agree with that because I think a bad trip can be just as rewarding as a good trip. However, I will say that if you have any fear of hallucinogens you should stay away from them. The first time I started to have a bad trip I realized how important trust is when it comes to hallucinogens. I do agree with guerilla about trying mushrooms first, but then again i'm really biased because thats basically the only thing I've ever tripped. They have a really natural earthy feel to them and for me, its really easy to let them take me where they want to take me because I know they come from the earth.
If you going to use them for some serious soul searching take GB's advice and get used to the headspace. Someone wise once told me, "you gotta learn to swim before you go diving." As for which is best... It'll probably be personal preference, Lsd tends to be much more visual for me and i like to be active, whereas shrooms is more mental, into my thoughts and enjoy sitting and contemplating.
I think it's a bad idea. Not worth taking the chance. It's hard to see things from the big perspective when you're young. Gonna have to trust me on this one.
Thanks for all your replies guys. When it comes to thinning my ego, I've seen that I have plenty of work I can do just with meditation. Mindfullness meditation is totally kicking my ass right now. I'll go with that for a while.
I essentially have schizophrenia (severe bipolar disorder with significant psychotic features) and have taken 2C-I a good 15 times now. I have also smoked Cannabis many times in the past. I have never had a bad problem with the psychedelic 2C-I even at high doses and relatively "bad" situations that some would consider "Bad Trips." I have not had a single experience on psychedelics that was anywhere near the anxiety and horror that I have felt on Cannabis. Now, I am not advocating it, but I am just saying that the mentally ill can sometimes take psychedelics.
