falling into depression

In the last few days I am making an extremely fast decent into depression. WHen I am with others, I am fine but those quiet moments of introspection or silence and my whole system of anxiety is taking over.

I'm really not sure what is happening but I don't like it. I am doing my best to get out of it. Music, dancing, hooping, reading, all sorts....but here I sit.

I suppose I need to dig deeper. FInd it and look it in the eye. Sometimes I don't know how to go deeper though. How do you?

 

"just ask the axis
he knows everything"

 

axis?

 

a little hendrix verse, always helps me out.

well you know me...I just deal with it....I can't help but be depressed in this insane world.

I am not depressed when I am flowing, though...

 

Just my own opinion, but I think depression as long as it isn't clinical is something natural that everyone goes through to help them deal with shit. We are living in a world where "THEY" tell you that depression is NOT natural and you need an antidepressant to deal with it. I work at a pharmacy and believe me I know how many people are on antidepressants. Feel sad? Take a pill. Sorry, but I think everyone gets depressed at one time or another. It's just your body mind and spirits way of saying you have crap you are not dealing with. Don't fight it. Embrace it. Feel it. Deal with it.

 

pills..............

 

Also, ... when egos break down we can experience what feels like depression. Everything seems lost or wrong (to the ego). But nothing real is ever lost ... just the unreal.

Spend some time with your dog or cat if you have any pets .. love them. Or go tend your garden and love that. Even loving a human will do i guess!

St. Johns wort for the anxiety.

 

I have always suffered bouts of depression. Took meds for a couple years because it gets really bad. My depression turns into anger.

I've been doing so good for so long and now I am being asked by myself to go within....as I stated. I'm asking what you all do when you need to go within. I am not in the least trying to not deal with it because I don't like it cycling around so often.

It used to be me and a hatred I had of myself. Now that is gone, thank goddess. But something is grabbing my leg and pulling down, down, down....

Because what I want to do is lie on my bed and feel sorry for myself but that doesn't necessarily take me within.

Most often I go out into nature for a good few hours. Perhaps I need a camping expedition this weekend.

Our cat just killed our gerbil....so I don't wanna pet the cat.

 

OK...instead of running away from it by music, dancing, hooping etc. why don't you sit quietly and look at it. Music, dancing, hooping etc. sounds like you are trying to avoid the issues. I think depression is your "being" saying "pay attention" "wake up". Go deep inside and LOOK. If you don't deal with that issue deep inside yourself that is keeping you a prisoner of depression.........I get depressed too....

 

And I also get depressed. But I know exactly what thoughts are causing my depressions. Mariecstasy, you don't indicate whether you're aware of the thoughts that brought on your depression. It may be partly a matter of looking for those thoughts, as Windy noted earlier.

What you do with those thoughts once you find them depends partly on what they are. If your situation seems hopeless - maybe it is, but very possibly it isn't. If you're feeling the loss of something - it can also be a time for a new beginning. When the doors you counted on having access to are all closed, look for a new one that's open somewhere else.

You can ask the universe to show you the cause of your depression, and also to show you what you need to be happier, and believe the universe will do both of those things.

Of course...sometimes it's a bona fide chemical imbalance. But I think you're right to make a dedicated effort toward self-exploration before going back to the meds. It could be the right time for a breakthrough in insight.

 

No, I don't have any desire to do meds again.

I had many wonderful insights last night in regards to all of this actually.

I was unaware of the thoughts that brought on the depression because it was happening, and fast. Took me by surprise. Started the downward decent into self-pity.

Last night I realized that I was letting myself get knocked around instead of handling it like a warrior. Today is full of taking action and changing what I can, accepting what I can't and letting go of the rest.

Its hard when the uvniverse bombards ya with so much to deal with at once. Then its easy to want to go into bed and cover up and hide.

Thanks guys. I just needed to call it for what it was instead of trying to mask it and this thread allowed me just that. I needed to get it off my chest and look at it as reality more than anything.

I know we all get depressed. Peace and blessings on your way.

 

by the way, the music, dancing, hooping, etc generally allows me to see instead of hide from it. I do these things to help bring it up:cheers2: I get insights often while I am active not while I am inactive.

 

Why don't you try meditating on what's making your depressed?
Start out with how you're feeling, and then ask yourself why.
It might take a while but I'm sure the truth will come out.

 

The Winter is on it's way. Everyone in our part of the Earth starts to get a little shady. People withdrawl into themselves and take on the comfort of isolation from the external world. Me, me me! It's only natural to feel our energy sapped away as its less expendable when the Sun is at a little further distance.
No better time to find that source of energy from within, the word of God manifesting our consciousness. Tap into your heart Marie, the love is there, and it's plenty strong enough to get you back on your feet and feeling blissful.
God Bless +

 

I agree with the above posters about meditation and self-reflection, depressions and down times can be a great time for self-exploration.
I do think it can be a little dangerous and you have to be careful with depression in not getting stuck in negative thought loops that lead to nowhere though.

I have been trying to look at all the positive stuff in the sinking economy.

The American people are wakening up and seeing the corruption that runs the country.

The evil banking empire is falling apart.

This is sending earth shattering shock waves through the political game that has been rigged and the same for decades. I think we will see a lot more 3rd party votes this year then ever.

This is the type of material revolutions and made out of..

I am very unimpressed with how this country is run and where it is headed and see change as good and things will never change as long as the general public is comfortable with their pathietic slave existence.

 

I saw a bumper sticker today that said
STOP BITCHING..START A REVOLUTION!

loved it!

 

thanks guys for responding.

and yep winter is coming. i love going back and reading my journals after the winters because i grow so much

 

breaking your self into peices?

humpty dumpty fell off the wall

just try to put yourself back together while being alone you will break then have to reput yourself back together

then eventually you will get use to being alone

i think passing through the thought of being alone is a hard one was for me

 

GOOD for you.

You've found your center and your power.

Blessings.

 

oh sorry for posting that i have a tendancie to not read threads only the first part

you know where all the information about the thread is

all the good stuff yeaaaahhhhh