I can't stand people. Like, on a basic human level, I love my fellow man; I can empathize well with people, and am naturally very compassionate. But the pettiness of my fellow man has driven me to cut off nearly all of my friends. So here I am, alone in this apartment yet again. If anyone wants to IM me, I'd appreciate it. I'm pretty fucking depressed.
hey man done be depressed just find something to keep yourself occupied maybe donate some money to something that might make you feel better remember there is starving children in this world
I used to go into atlanta bread company before closing and steal ALL of their bread. They had it in bags to just throw away... anyway, I'd walk the town handing out bread to people. great way to pass the time Learn to embrace the solitude. It comes in waves.
all the rich folk assumed I poisoned it and all the poor folk were grateful and so happy :] I felt like santa clause on a hot florida sunset
Do you exercise? Do you do creative things? What do you want to do? Envision yourself doing it, and do whatever it takes to get there.
I do not excersize. I do many, many creative things. I write, play banjo and guitar, sing, edit music, make film, and draw. But like, these things are well and good, but without any friendship in my life, I feel hollow. I also really dont want to be in suburbia anymore, but my mother just paid for this 6 month lease to get me out of her house. Everyone tells me I need to "fit the mold" (exact wording I was told to-day), get a job, go to school, find a career, et cetera. I want to be a shaman.
good for you, Will.. I have observed Many people emerge from this society who have followed this path. it must seem difficult, because it is. I used to search for a guru then I realized they were inside, which is outside...somewhere inverted. why do you want to be a shaman? are you going to try and escape babylon, or learn to manipulate it and deal with it?
I could be mistaken; but I think being a shaman is something that chooses you. Should That happen, you may well need to make bff with solitude. Social "interaction" could well be the exception, Not the rule. I do promise you that -given time and certain circumstances - even though you may be alone, you will not feel lonely.
everyone is different, especially nowadays, and some people are given roles, that they you can choose to follow or ignore.
Perhaps I should have said, "Practicing Shaman". Like, I have regular visions. Both with and without drugs. But I want to share my findings with the world, guide others, et cetera.
Ah.... very interesting. It is said that as we need and seek, teachers will be sent to us. I wish you luck and Godspeed.
godspeed indeed there are teachers everywhere especially sahasrara everyone is scattered now . . just follow your "heart" with your minds eye ablaze
Ah.... very interesting. It is said that as we need and seek, teachers will be sent to us. I wish you luck and Godspeed.
these duplicate posts are flipped out when I'm not doing them twice - also I have been disconnected from the net for no reason - twice - during the time I've been doing this. My damn hard headedness made me keep coming back.lol Twice what I have "tried to post" has been wiped out. Coincidence. Can't wait to see what'll happen this time. The ethers must be wild in the net web tonight.
yeah man i havent had friends for many years since child hood to now i felt depressed about it until i was like 14 or 16 somewhere around there then i was like hey man every one is a potential victim to your downfall almost like enemies in the back waiting for you to rise then knock you down with a bunch of crap that they might be jelous of or spmething like that dont worry about it man it will just give you a better understanding about how people have there back to you then you see them turn around and some of them are wearing white for good intentions and some are wearing black with bad intentions when you see them turn around towards your life
