Ecstacy should be handeld carefully

well about 2 weeks ago a double stacked some e's. It was my first time. It was great while a was high, but the day after i was depressed as fuck. I thought a party that afternoon would cheer me up but lets say it did the oppisit. I made 2 post while completely shitfaced, one saying im not doing anymore drugs witch is completly bullshit and one that i was leaving because i was thinking of quitting drugs. anyways i advise everyone not to drink the day after rolling, let your head clear.

 

I always drink after rolling. haha in all honesty i usually swirl down vodka while rolling and continue after i come down...don't really feel the booze until the effectstasys of ecstasy wears off...tehehe.

In regards to how MDMA should be handled carefully, you're preaching to the choir my brothah. I've chomped so many of those evil pills; it took me a little under a year to get my head straight...but it's still not straight, and it probably never will be: it's more like inverted and lopsided. Whatever, better than no head at all right? lol. I've tried telling people for the last year in this forum to treat ecstasy with respect but not many people listen. There are still people who ignore the warnings munching 5+ a night. Can't blame em, i did the same thing. People only learn from their own mistakes. I wish i had listened to parents and friends a bit more in high school, but i thought they were full of shit. Turns out that i was a complacent fool and now im suffering the consequences.

 

Can you explain what you mean when you say your head still isn't straight. I think I know what you mean. Im not going mad, im just, not the same since the last time i fucked myself up on 13 pills.

 

Anxiety, depression, scattered memory, overall feeling of spaciness.

The effects I'm feeling now are no wear near as prominent as they were when i first quit. I'm definitely still a functioning member of society. Im in college studying to be an English major. The major side effect that i feel above all others is anxiety. Depression a little bit, but it is more linked to the anxiety. When I'm happy I'm very happy, and when I'm low im lower than you can imagine. THe only problem is that the shift happens so radically and for no reason at all; the littlest issues set me off. My memory has returned for the most part. My extreme short term memory is fried, but only in regards to things like "wear are my keys, wears my cellphone". I have a large vocabulary and I speak quite well, all things considered. As strange as it sounds, my long term memory seems to have increased: don't ask me why. I have always had great reading comprehension, and i still do. The only difference is that i find myself loosing focus easier and thinking about other subjects whilst in midread. Ill read a sentance and realize even though I read it fine, i was thinking about something entire unrelated to the topics at hand.

When I stopped, I reached a breaking point after one night of eating 9 or 10 'yellow splatz'. Very potent brand. Worst comedown i have EVER had. I was a suicidal mess with no memory whatsoever to speak of, and it stayed with me for a few months. I have rolled a few times in the last year but have spaced them out with astounding temperance only to find that the magic has completely dissoluted. So I'm done with that shite. Hopefully I'll continue to improve, but the odds of me returning to COMPLETE normality are slim. You reap what you sew.

 

give it awhile newbie you may yet learn to handle your drugs

 

...are you talking to me

if so, fuck off. I don't need to prove anything to you, but I can handle drugs just fine. And btw this isnt a computer game... "n00b"

If you wernt talking to me, ignore that comment

 

ignored, more directed at the OP.

 

hahaha, ok my bad man.

 

See what the drugs have done to you.

 

I love E it was a great experience but now I wish I would have never done it because the damage it did to my brain was not worth the 6 hours of enjoyment I got. There are studies that prove that E does infact damage your serotonin axons and lowers how many total you have in your brain. So even having doing E once you lose a slight amount of axons forever. Before I did E I would almost never get depressed and now I can get depressed noticebly quicker than I did before my E experience. I have also noticed im not pyscologically as stable as I was before and im sure it's the E not weed. Also I have way worse anxiety than I did before I did E and it's been 6 months since I did it. I noticed also just like that other guy I can rapibly switch from a happy mood and snap into a angry or sad mood very quick off stupid situations.

 

i did a lot of reading on here before trying ecstasy and listened to all the advice, which very well may have come from you. anyway i haven't rolled many times, but i haven't done it 2 weekends in a row, and i haven't done more than 2 at a time. so yeah, you are helping people not fuck up their lives, IMO.

 

It's good to know that some people listen^

 

yeah mike
iv seen a ton of posts of yours just surfing around here that might keep people from doing
stupid shit
nice to know some people look out for others

 

i only like rolling on friday cause my crashes usually can span 2 days, which means if i roll on saturday night, i will want to kill myself when i'm at school. anyway, if i roll on friday, saturday i usually take really easy. i don't drink regardless, so i've never had trouble with that. i don't think i could roll 2 days in a roll seeing as the 2nd roll would be shit.

 

I've only had a limited experience with rolls. I've done them off and on with a large break in between, but went on a binger this winter break, rolling 4-5 days a week. Let's just say I will never do that again. I was the most depressed mother fucker for a good month after. I'm just now finally feeling normal again. Ecstasy fun, but don't over do it. Responsible use.

 

yeah, i only decided to stop doing E after learning from my own mistakes.. after doing it yourself, and you know how fucked up you get afterwards... thats when you learn..

cause a lot of people dont listen to other peoples experiences, they want to experience it for themselves, then later on they realize, "oh shit, they were right.. i shoulda listened."

thats what happened to me.. lol.. i'm very stubborn.

anyway, i told myself i'd stop E.. on Feb 2nd, 2008 ... cause exactly ONE year ago from that day was the FIRST time i've ever done E. actually, i hippy flipped. lol

but uhh,, i think my ecstasy binge is over... i went crazy with it over the summer, i think next week at some rave, will be the absolute last time i do E. cause i didn't get to do it on Feb2nd. the magic is gone for me... lol i dont feel it the way i used to, and i dont wanna be popping too many E pills in one night.

 

^how many have you eatin (rough estiment)?

If you roll every two to 3 months and keep the doses below 3-4 pills, antioxidize properly and possibly take an SSRI once you come down you will see no side effects whatsoever...but if you're already seeing side effects i would definitely just quit all together. I've been in the process of quitting for a year. I always tell myself Ill never do it again. Then ill get drunk and pills will be about and ill pop them without question (alcohol strips my inhibitions). i think i'm finally done though. Took a while. Pills might not be "addicting" but they became such a huge part of my life that not doing them was very hard. MDMA and cocaine are definitely the hardest habits for me to kick. Cocaine is still a work in progress.

 

probably over 90....
i remember this one month where i did like 14 pills.. my bf at the time was beginning to get worried about me... to the point where he wanted me to choose between him or e..

ofcourse i chose him, but i still did it anyway. lol..

but yeah, it became a huge part of my life too.. and i know its not addictive or anything, but i sure as hell became obsessed...

 

i'm gonna have one more roll for a while at least. my last roll would have been last weekend but the pills were shitty so i'm gonna try it again in a week or two. i gotta start taking my celexa which is an ssri.

i seriously thought about what i needed more right now, having a good time, or getting rid of anxiety. so i picked the obvious one but i'm really gonna miss the fun times i had when rolling

 

lol sorry, but that's NOTHING compared to the binges I'd go on.

14 in a month... lol I was averaging 15 pills 2/3 days.