I was raised by a mother who was into natural remedies and a father who was into popping pills.. For most of my childhood and teenage years my dad was anaethetized...he took drugs to numb out his painful childhood I never felt he was quite "there" for me. Although I drank booze for a good while, since becoming a mother, I gave it up and chose to become totally sober....it is just as well cos as I explained on another thread, our little one never slept well. I became a bit of a rebel cos I would never do as my dad did. We fought over this...i was a hotheaded teenager and young woman, but have learned to become more accepting now.... My Dad now tells me that drugs arent the answer....and can you believe it at almost aged 80, he is becoming drug free... He feels every emotion and cries every day for all the hurt he was dealt... I admire him....he is a brave man... And I am so glad I had the strength to break the pattern.... love xxx
i'm so happy for you. yeah, drugs are a hard habbit to break. i just broke my coke & heroin addiction. i'm sticking to everything natural. like pot & mushrooms & alcohol. and well, yeah, anything goes.
thanks for your reply.....seems like I am one of the few that dont do drugs here...but then again I never was one to run with the crowd....always did my own thing I only ever smoked pot and that nearly fucked me up.......it put me off trying all else, thankfully... The booze was wrecking my health....so I gave that up too Well done yourself for breaking your habits.... Couldnt have been easy....
no it sure wasn't easy. got put in rehab because of it. i actually didn't want to quit the hardcore things. because i like them waayyy too much. even the fact that i was broker that broke. and i almost killed myself on accident several times. since i was forced there by my parents and i am now off the hook, so to speak. i feel so much better and i know that if i go back it'll be a thousand times worse than before. that's what keeps me away from it.
I am a parent of a small boy.... Cant imagine how it would feel to see him in rehab blessings to you girl xx
my mom cried for an entire week while i was up there. we was so devastated. what i've done with my life, has really killed her emotionally. i feel like shit, that i have done that to her, you know?
Aaaahh bless you.... Do you mind me asking why you felt so drawn to doing the heavy stuff....were you very unhappy at the time...either with yourself or your family or life in general? Is this too personal a question for you girl....its just that I work as a healer and also I have a little boy who I want to be able to help in the future... Thanks xx
no, it was curiosity. the first time i saw someone snorting heroin and their reaction to it, i felt compelled to try it. a little bit of monkey see monkey do. and i did so, coughed up my money, snorted it and fell into an infatuation that i couldn't break. heroin just felt good. and if something foreign could make me feel so good, then why not persue it? the cocaine, i really liked bc it kicked me up after i had been on heroin for a period of time. if i needed to go to work or get something done cocaine was my "it" drug, it gave me the energy i needed. then, being a drug addict/alcoholic, i was always all about "feeling good". if i was out of one thing, i'd substitute it for another. i did anything to get me high, no matter what the reprecusions were. so, i've done everything every drug on the planet. and right now, i'm only sticking to like five or six. so, that's a big difference for me.
thanks for your honesty.... i saw a very good irish psychic and healer a while back....i took our son cos he was having eating problems... she said something very strange...."he will never do drugs....he wont need to with you being so open with him"...i was a little stunned....as i would always have an open mind to what the future brought...never say never so to speak? i know a lot who take drugs to escape their wounds, the reality of life.......to numb the pain and i totally understand this... you are very good to talk to me on an open forum like this and i cant help but notice you are the only one who has come into my thread to discuss this matter..... why do you think this is.........because I stand out and am different to most....do you think? xx
i don't know, actually. maybe bc i can relate somehow. i always try to help other people out by what i have been through. that sounds like a very intersting statement that the irish psychic/healer said to you. she/he is probably right, you know. if you're open and the like with your child then he should have no reason to do drugs. but my mom was that way with me and i still did them, it just depends. if he ever does, monitor it closely. monitor his friends, free time, etc. and of course he may want to experiment i don't know where you stand on that, but if it gets too out of hand, there's alwasy rehab. but all in all, i hope your son doesn't become engulfed in drug addictism.
thank you for your wise and reassuring words... part of the reason I come here is to learn and remind myself of the problems and challenges facing youth culture.....and like you to help, too... my thing has always been love and sex...thats whay Ive always got off on....maybe my son being a Scorpio (sign of sex) like me will find his outlet there........or through music. He is teaching himself to play keyboard and is already excellent... who knows....its all conjecture isnt it....? thanks girl....can I send you a little healing light? x
i've never tried strong drugs only pot i hate alcohol coz the worst thing is when ya cant control your mind such addictions hurt your closest people in general that's why it's better to keep your mind clear and sober those who have break the habit are brave and deserve admiration
I congratulate you for overcoming odds and statistics. Remember, if you do not already, that all drug users are not trying to flee from reality, though it does seem for every responsible user who has purpose there are hundreds destroying their lives. I myself do not use drugs to escape. They in fact do the exact opposite. As she said.
exactly. the best way to use drugs is to gain infinite knowledge otherwise not seen on a 3-d plane. or gain insight, whether spiritual or whatever. just do it for you and your experience.
