I just recently came off a pretty intense shroom trip, and towards the end on the come down...I couldn't help but to feel an overwhelming fealing of defeat..in life. I look at my life and my routine and think..why..what am I doing? I sleep..wake up..go to work all day..come home at nite...do sum opiates..smoke some weed..mayb do sum shrooms...go to sleep..wake up go to work...hang out with sum friend..and repeat, and on the occasional day i have off what do i do? Sit in my room, or around my house, relax and watch tv, which don't get me wrong is nice...but I mean this is not how i pictured myself when I was a little boy. Wasting my life away on..well existing. Why do we do what we do? Basicly just to exist and drift by in life to one day die. I feal like I am just floating threw life with no initiative. I have no drive, no reason to succede no motivation...so for now until mayb after a few more trips as intense i can discover the true meaning of what it is for me to do more then exist.
The point of life is fun *nods wisely*. If drugs are fun, do em. If they're not so fun any more, lay off em for the time being.
maybe you saw that so that you can change it. and you should probably stop doing opiates as that may lead to not-so-good things if you already hate your life.
Whenever I get that feeling that my life is worthless, I take it as a wake-up call to give it meaning. Besides drugs, do you have a hobby? Creation is wonderful. Charity is fantastic. Spiritual work is the most benefitial.
lol or just accept the fact you are creating your life by what you do and don't do. Choose what you want and go after it.
They safe life is about the journey, not the destination. You don't say your age but I just turned 46 and don't know what my purpose is yet. But I'm having a ball finding out.
Well Happy belated Birthday! I've no purpose but to grow and learn....and again....like you said...to have a ball doing it.
nah i dont' do the opiates and shit as much, but i mean recently the mushroom trips i been having are eye opening, they make me realize how monotonous my life has been, and have also opened my eyes to my family and given me a new love towards them. I will wait a day or two and then open my eyes again and take another trip and hopefully unlock a little more of my brain that i never had access too before.
If you don't like your life, them change it. Pick up a new hobby, do new things, get out of the routine. Bitching about it sure won't help. Doing opiates won't help either.
what else are you interested in besides drugs, hanging out with friends, and is your job something you like? maybe take some classes, or learn something new. hobbies... which has been mentioned a bunch of times already, but is the best reply for you. make some changes. dont just sit around and waste your life away. if your not happy, what do you think will make you happy? you dont need to do drugs to find that out. just think. what do you want?
