so i have a..... well i guess its a confession I hate being around people...i have an intolerance for most people i meet but its not that simple..... i also care deeply for people too deeply most of the time striving to connect....wanting to reach out to people but still i can not stand being around people too often and because my husband is a very social person i find myself in situations and well actually a way of life that makes me feel nervous i put on a smile and i find it easy at times to make conversation but mostly i just want to walk away and be alone... i get very confused when i thinking about this question.... why do i care so much about people when i can't stand to be around people?? i am sure the answer is far less interesting then i imagine but it was on my mind so yea ....blahhh
ok, i will have to just type it. *sigh*. this is from Gary Goldschneiders Secret Language of Birthdays.... his work is the most accurate and amazing astrology truth i have ever seen anywhere and i highly reccomend it to all of you. i hope you don't mind this public response in showing the foremost nature of your personality issues, but this shows that there is NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU...you are just experiencing the energy of your birthday. Setember 22 The Day OF Restless Drive Those born on September 22 have a restless drive to begin all sorts of new projects. Ususally they bring the one they are working on to completion but immediately set out on a new one without rest. they are also capable of handling several projects at the same time. Those born on this day have a low boredom threshold, and conseqently demand challenging people and situations. They can be out going and dynamic types at one time, and solitary and unapprochable at another. In either case, their strong character is unmistakable. Often September 22 people oscillate between an offensive and defensive posture. In one sense, such postures may be one and the same since a good offense is the best defense and vice-versa. Whether in a broad social context or on a personal level, the issues and ideas those born on this day are most often concerned with involve fairness and equlaity in general, matters pertaining to the delegation and and exercise of power. in putting forth their arguments, they can be very ironic, witty and outright funny. Their humor, however, is not for everyone as it is liable to be off-beat, sordonic, perhaps even macabre. Those born on September 22 can hide a warm heart under a forbidding exterior, but generally will only open up to people whom they deeply trust and value. Even then they may find it difficult to open all the way, however, pricipally because their orientation is highly realistic and the ironies of life all too visable to them. this day, indeed carries insight and clarity of vision both literal and figurative. September 22 people are excellent judges of character, and capable of sizing people up very quickly. Those few friends whom they allow into their inner sanctum they value most highly, usually for life. It is quite possible that one or even both parents , in exceptional cases, will fall into this catagory. September 22 people can often have a greater effect on those around them than they realize, and indeed can register a high degree of shock value. Because of their often disturbing impact, they should seek to be more aware of their effect on others, both friends and foes alike. True warriors in the battle of life, they must take stock of their armaments and defenses, using them judiciously and effectively, and avoid isolating and alienating themselves from the daily world of human values. ~~~~~~~~~~~ see, that just explains why you are feeling perfectly normal!! i hope this helps sweet sister.
here is the advice he offers: Don't despise those who are more open and gullible than yourself. Get in touch with your own innocent nature. Try not to box yourself into one kind of outlook. Give yourself time to dream and to recharge. Meditation: Buddha just sat under a tree and let the whole world come to him
wow...thats just like what annabegins said well its still an irritating feeling but maybe i should listen to this advice altho im a bit confused on how ?? how do i get in touch with my innocent nature? and yea i'll try not to despise those who are more open and oh yea gullible? but why do most people call me naive isn't that like being gullible? or are they all just misjudging me? i am soo not good at knowing myself...grrr frustrating :$
sister, i understand how you feel. it has taken me almost 50 (freaking )years to begin to understand myself and i still feel daunted by the task of making all the info i have work to my advantage. It seems to me that everyone i know and love is wrestling with the same *problems*, which is: how do we come to peace with our emotional pain, struggles, inner weaknesses, character gaps etc. ie Life Lessons. It simply catches up to us sooner or later. We think we are avoiding it, but then something/someone brings it all back again and again for us to deal with. What i have discovered is that the information is available to us, but it require intense devotion to discovering it, and then facing the truth, while keeping the commitment to change, evolve, grow up, mature, etc. It is hard hard hard work!!!! ok, i just looked up your Path of Destiny in his other book, and guess what? you are here to learn how to "stand up for what you believe in or for those you love" and "To take up any challenge and not back down" you are on the "Way of Resolve." which means, just what i said above...it is really hard work and it takes alot( all) of your commitment. It is going to take everything you have to grow and develope yourself inner strength. but you are on the right track, for you are seriously seeking answers and are looking for real spiritual insight. So syncronicity will unfold to bring you the tools you need to do this life work. I stongly encourage you to get these powerful books by Gary Goldschneider. And continue to develope the sense of determination you must have to be on your path. they will give you a framework of info to get you clear on exactly what you are dealing with. i know it seems hard, but if you really start to study, you will gain strength and conviction. your birth day issues Sept 22, are simply a focus point for you to work your path of destiny with. it all works together to give a framework to your spiritual path. i wish i could just sit down with you for a few hours and show you how it all fits together. But i alas, cannot. So go get these books, learn about the energy of your path, really apply your entire being into this task, and it will change your life for the better. ok, i want to write more, but i have to go paint my kitchen now!
Compassion for the general "idea" of people is one thing, but tolerating individual stupidity is another. Perhaps you love the forest from a distance, but can't stand most of the trees up close and personal.
ha and at the same time the things that make people individuals always interests me... my friends say that i am great one on one....and in a crowd i can almost pass as a social being...i can play with the crowds but i would rather run from them but ppl in general i can handle...i just usually don't want to ppl are beautiful...they just weird me out
see I want to help humanity, I like the idea of the good of man kind, but every time I go out among people I want to take a scythe up and disembowel most of them...... better yet, femeral arteries..... and that is perhaps ironic because a mob is only as smart as the lowest basest among it and yet I wish that I could help the largest mob of all HA!
