hmmm. so it was after my most recent trip last week that has changed me the most. i feel like a completly new person. and i was telling all these amazing things iv learnt and stuff to my one friend who hasnt taken lsd. and he rekons he's seriously worried about whats happening to me, and that its not normal and thinks im going insane. the most change in thought i ever thought possible. a complete loss with who i was, and even everything. having to repeice everything i ever thought i ever new. the next day, oh, its 2008, ok. its novemeber. wow. repeiciing everything. looking at everything is seeing it all again for the first time, in a psychologically deep way. fasicantining way. more beatuful way than any other trip had put on me. i have to re-think the very being in who i am. i dont even know me anymore. now i have this want for change. to express myself even more. iv allready bought new clothes. but you see none of it is crazy. its just psychologcally deep and a new to see somthing, as apposed to some other drugs that do give crazy thoughts. but oh yeah. i sapose care is needed in who you tell the amazing things you find. im no longer really scared in people going 'crazy' from lsd, because now i know, its just that people who havent taken lsd have no grip or grasp of such a different way of thinkin, that they just label "INSANE" on them. i smoked weed the other day, and had the most intense flashback of my life, but it was amazing. i have had realisation after realisation, epiphany after epiphany about the everything, just pecing together my understanding of reailty. discovering how things work now with my super-mind. lsd gives you a super mind. holy shit. there is so much i told him that i cant even re-begin to explain again here. but care is needed in what you tell em
yes a lot of people cant see through their preconceptions if you try to explain what any drug experience is like, unless it fits their preconceptions to a certain extent
sounds like your friend needs to take some L with you next time or it is time you both went your own way. someone who thinks you are crazy or going crazy when you are not is not a good friend at all - they are you enemy. not that any action is needed on your part but finding a new friend - when i say enemy i dont mean you should start a war - just better that you see him for what he is - a destructive force in your life until you walk away. i guess in some way it might be good for you to contemplate your own sanity. but it also can be dangerous if you are unsure of your sanity for too long.
somtimes i quesiton my sanity. but somtimes, maybe its like im so insane, i realise im not insane at all. and its all real. but i dont feel insane, but rather just a new understanding and way of thinking. which i wouldnt assosiate with insane. i used to think i was crazy, untill i took lsd. now i realise im normal. but that particualr friend is very closed minded to anything trippy at all. mind you he has done about 150 pills this year, since his mum died. but hes not like my other friends at all. and doesnt really hang round us trippers much at all. but i guess me and my tripper friends have been gettin a little weird. even just smokin weed and drinkin, or taken a couple pills. we walk around the house like mad man, just completlty lost in our own world, impossible to communicate, just a range of differnt pitched HMMM''ss, and strange psychotic looking faces.
you guys should be worrying more about the pills than the LSD. if you take enough pills you will need to be on antidepressants just to be normal again. what you do to your serotonin receptors when you do ecstasy may never recover. i really dont understand why ecstasy is more socially acceptable than LSD. enough ecstasy is guaranteed to make you depressed. 150 pills in a year - he is in trouble. i sure hope you are smarter than he is. i think that ecstasy can be very good for you in many ways. but any more than 10 trips is a waste as far as i am concerned. (i did probably 50+trips before i clued in)
That is interesting peter popper. Mostly because ive used the history to go posts back and you seemed rather knowledgeable on lsd, and still have such a large breakthrough. I have had the same thing, with friends kinda teasing my psychedelic use, because they dont understand. I took lsd the other night and can honestly say everything i thought about the human race and life in general i had already agreed with because of previous lsd/shrooms/2c-t2 use. So it didnt really cause a profound change my view, yet it still gave me such energy and freshness on my personal view that i was simply excited to know. I remembered the age ol rumor of being legally insane when your on acid. and i thought to myself: I must be legally insane, simply because i think every other human behaves insane. I felt of course they must label it insane, because it doesnt mesh with the horrible way society wants to move. It is so obvious i dont know how you can actually have your friends questions, question you very viewpoints. There is nothing wrong with you, and you should have more confidence when convincing your friend. It is pretty bad you say he does pills but wont even consider touching lsd.
ya its not possible to comprehend until it happens how it could just all fall away right before your eyes, than woah, there it is, thats it right there people dont want to get any notion that everything they need has always been just sitting right there in a tesseract around them, cause then it insults everything they've been doing in their life up till now In terms of sanity. I have one judge for sanity and insanity. Am I happier or not? Personally I think the only insane thing you can do is to not be perfectly happy and content every moment of your life. Cause really, I could be flying through LSD hyperspace for the rest of my life permanently, but am I happy about it? Well if I am, then I am, whats there to worry about? But besides that, I have this underlying intuition that you will always come back, it's not possible to not comeback. It feels like thinking I won't come back would be insanity. But anyways. Here is what Leary said about dealing with doubters of drug abuse. Off erowid I quite like his notions. I don't think care is needed. Just the right intention, which will invariably bring the right people around you. I mean, one time I went off about God for a good 10 minutes on the back porch of this party that had only alcohol drinkers. I pretty much scared everyone off that porch. The way I think of it, it's collective accumulation of the metaphor 'insane' in the people surrounding you that ultimately constitutes 'insane' in your own brain.
I agree that care is definitely needed as far as what you tell people. The good news is you have the people on this forum to talk to, and we will all know where you are coming from As far as your sanity, I would definitely take some time to think about these thoughts your having and to decide once and for all that you are sane. Like 3xi said, it is definitely dangerous to doubt your own sanity for a long period of time. I don't think you are going insane at all. I think you are simply beginning to understand the power of the mind to determine your reality, the power of your mind to define who you are as a person, etc. You are realizing more what it means to have an identity and to actively shape it with your mind. On a final note, I would caution you against a lot of weed smoking right now. If you are having intense flashbacks, it's probably best to take a little break to give yourself some time to absorb all of these new realizations
Don't worry you are not insane. Actually everybody is a little bit crazy. Be sure with yourself who you are. In my opinion you should think what you are saying to someone before you say it. But when it comes to friends they should understand. He should have an LSD trip with you. I personaly don't see anything special about pills. If it's about energy I have it even more without them. Happiness never gave me more than what it is with me. I don't know maybe it's just me. I feel happiness for what you are going thru now. Anytime you have us on this forum. You are loved and safe here.
exactly. that plus so much more. man. there are some amazing responses here. and thats why i love this forum cause everyone understands what your talking about and can associate with you. even more its the way its done, in such a postive and caring way. i just realised somthing too. in the last one week, iv done acid, speed, ecstasy, weed, and alchole. im deffinatly done with the E's. the speed was a once off. its actually a shame i did E's and speed so close to taking acid, cause all that exitment i had about life, is been flushed by feeling shitty and worn out. it will come back in a couple days i hope. most importantly i have now realised im not going to do any more pills at all. for a long, long time if at all. strictly acid on occasion, alchole, and weed. you know it does suck having people make you doubt your own sanity. expecially just after you've had amazing experieces and realised its not insanity at all, just psychologically unlocking a greater understanding. and thats what i beleive it to be. and im comfortable in beleving it as real. thanks for all the help guys. man i love these forums. just wish i had words that can desribe more about how i feel. just wish we had a couple more million words in the language to express some of the new things. like some sort of extra intelligent alien that has been stuck with a primitive language. hmm i dont know.
you can hardly assemble a coherent sentence now. i don't think a couple more million words would help you.
Lmao, be nice. There may be other reasons as to why he types like that. Anyway I find LSD to be helpful like that sometimes in other peoples cases, when they take so much they overload their minds and really need to retrieve themselves unless they want to be stuck in a mindless daze for another few hours. I felt like that on a hard trip, that I needed to recollect every fact about my life.
i think when you say i cant type coherent sentesces, is cause the brain is racing. iv noticed alot of my mobile phone messages, are missing the words at the end of the sentsence, and startin the new sentense without them. and id read over it and not even notice untill later. but im sure the shit goes away. anyway, im sure all the crazy shit i wrote was i was just in a state of 'hi' from the acid. all gone now thanks to a rough trip. brought right down. infact it really sucks. those good trips had boosted my ego, and made me alot more happy and talkative and confident, all fucking gone now. is it common to get depressed after a 'bad' trip? doubtfull and withdrawn?
