To cut a long boring story short, i'll get to the point as quickly as possible. Earlier this year i met a woman who told me she was interested in me etc, so i started dating her but held back sexually because i didn't want to rush in too quickly. The relationship was quite a big deal to me because i'd only just come out of the closet, and, had never had a sexual relationship with a woman before. The more i got to know the woman the closer i felt to her and eventually i let go of my fear and spent a weekend with her. i won't lie the sex was fantastic and for the first time in my life it was emotionally satisfying too! but after a couple of days the woman sent me a message on my phone and told me that she'd made a mistake and didn't want to see me anymore. I was upset at the time, but eventually moved on a met someone new. My new partner is everything i could wish for in a woman and i've never been happier, but the other day i was talking to a mutual friend, and, she told me the woman i was seeing previously only slept with me because she wanted to be with me for my first experience! obviously when i heard this i did feel quite hurt and used in a way. If i could turn back the clock i would have saved myself for my current partner, but that obviously wasn't meant to be. If anything though the whole experience has made me appreciate what i have now much more,and, i'm just thankful that my current partner is a warm, caring and most importantly "honest" individual...
I used to feel the way you do. I was married before and i used to think why did i marry her why didnt i wait and get with the person i am married to now.but you know what if you had not done everything that you have done in your life you may not be with your partner now. Think of it this way you had just come out of the closet and were cautious had you not been with the first one that hurt you then you may have still been cautious when you met your current partner and that may have been the difference between you and her meeting and parting ways and being where you are today. I feel stongly that what we do in the past(good and bad) shape who we are today. I have a few regrets in my life but if i could fix those regrets but not be with my wife i would choose my wife. So be thankfull that you path in life has led you to your partner many people are not so lucky.
