well it all started at the STS9 show, me and this girl anna who'se been my friend for awhile but finally connected during the summer went to a shower that was maybe about 3 months ago. At the sts9 show was when we got together and at first i wasnt the one who wanted a relationship cuz i hate spliting my head over a girl and im alwaus the one putting my head back together, but she was such a doll and so nice so i thought maybe this could work so i gave her the relationship. Everything was beautiful in the begging, i made her feel good and she made me feel so high. Im currently not at school because i got kicked out last year for drugs and all (long story) and just lately i've been so down from sitting around in this room all day with no interactions. She was my goddess, but then all the sudden she turned on me and things got rough at first i thougth it was myaybe befcasue im not at school doing all those things i would be like walking her to class and all that. But she literally jus pushed me off a cliff, i was hanging out there way out there by myself it happened all so fast. She was crazy about me and then all the sudden she had no interested and paid me no mind, it really brought me down and it wasnt good for me becasue im already way down as it is. I always helped her out with her problems, but she was selfish whenever i came to talk to her about something she just put me away like a little child. So we decided to take a break from eachtoher, and yesterday i went to this little gig with a buddy of mine and she was mad that i came there becasue im not soposto see her but i wasnt there to see her i was there to jus jam, and like she got very mad when i asked her if i could get a ride home i just dont get how she was so sweet and then all the sudden turned this way. She's been with a lot of dickheads in the past, so i tried to do so much for her to make her happy and for awhile she was very content, but i think she just doesnt realize how good i was to her and she'l realize eventually but by then i wont want to break my head over this girl again, its a cryin' shame it had to go out like that. Sorry for my ramblin, its jus my hearts in airs righ now trying to piece together why she turned so selfish and uninterested
Maybe she is used to guys who are more controlling and less, well, like you, and maybe she thinks your weak? I dont know, sorry to hear your in pain but really why should you care? She sounds like a bad person to me. Theres plenty of other respectful girls to meet
Sounds like she likes playing games. You didn't want a relationship, she got you anyway, but now that she has you all interest is gone. That whole "thrill of the chase" thing. Get over it and move on. Of course, if she did literally just push you off a cliff, then you should be talking to the police, not complaining to us, as that is a criminal assault charge. And how did you climb back up to safety to get to your computer?
yeah theres that same old big mountain in fronta me, and sometimes it jus falls ontop of me. but now im feelin a lot better, like jimi said "its okay, i still got my guitar" and that i do, i'l be alright i jus had to release, maybe rock the bottle a bit hehe uk how that goes
rocking the bottle is the worst thing you can do in this situation. I am currently getting over my ex fiance of 3 1/2 years, and the only reason i talk to her still is because I have no choice since I have my son most of the week, but I still have to know where she is to drop him off. On top of that, I cancelled a date with a beautiful girl last night because when I went to give my son to her, she started crying and hugging me, rubbing my hair and kissing me, and she was begging me not to go on the date and to have lunch with her today. SO I cancelled the date and today when I talked to the ex, she told me she still wasnt sure if she wants to be with me! SO i fucked over a really cute, nice girl to give the ex another chance (I must admit, I still LOVE her, doesnt mean I still LIKE her ) And got screwed by her again. Last time I ever fall for her shit Im telling you, I told her to never bring up her feelings for me again because I no longer care, or feel bad for her when she is crying. But the last thing I would do is to get drunk. Go do some work, chop some wood, go for a run, ANYTHING To keep you moving and getting your mind straight, but trust me drinking only prolongs the pain and makes you pathetic
i play my guitar to get over things like this, a misunderstanding of a no good woman ohhh lord they've both caused my heart to bleed. seems like every mornin i wake up i hear the blues callin my name aint that a cryin shame, im getting better as time goes on tho its only been like 3 days so of course the first few days will sting like hell. it might be hard seeing her again tho, since we hang out around the same cats. i miss her sweet sweet kisses, i remember somethng she told me that will always be imbedded in the tisseus of my mind she said "no one has ever kissed me the way you have"
I play guitar as well, but for the past year or so I have devoted myself to teaching myself classical music. I, personally, dont belive in using my guitar to express the emotion of pain and saddness at the moment, I am waiting until I am so used to playing that that type of music inspiration comes completley natural to me. Sure, I used to play blues style, but it always ended up being a more upbeat, almost ragtime-like style. Currently, I love playing happy, upliftitng songs by Bach because of the pleasure of performing a techincal feat which is not always easy and also because of his mastery of blending joyful emotions with fast pace, natural professionalsim.
Listen please don't be offended. You need more confidence. If you acted like you didn't give a sht whether she stuck around or not she would likely still be around. Part of it is wanting what you can't have. Another part of it is the stuff you went to talk to her about. Remember how she just "put me away like a little child"? Well I am venturing a guess that you should avoid those conversations in the future, at least until you are damn near married. Most girls are looking for a little more confidence as opposed to the depression thing. Maybe you should save those conversations for family and close friends. I do not recommend getting back with this girl. She is used to dating assholes and you are just too nice a guy for her. Next g-friend play it a little stand-off-ish. Play hard to get ya know what I mean? Once you get the girl you still need to keep this up until you are just about married. At your age sharing your worries and fears will not help you much with women. Now don't worry as you get older that will change. Let's say for example you go to college and then get a good job. At that point you can be a nice guy and have it work for you. As a matter of fact it will probably work very well. Most nice guys w/ an education and a good job are married very quickly. Good luck in your next relationship.
