I've tripped LSD for my very first time in September. I have anxiety and intrusive thoughts, something that just can't be controled. Needless to say; I was NERVOUS! I had a severe fear of a bad trip and developing psychosis like so many had threatenes me with. We camped out during an awful storm (which I thoroughly enjoyed) and waited for the storm to clear then dropped the acid just before dawn, like I asked. The experience was overwhelmingly raptorous. Like a sudden and brutal wave of truth, much akin to having a book of EVERYTHING IN THE UNIVERSE put in front of you and reading the entire thing within a second, every second. I stumbled seemingly mindless through the woods, cimpletely void of clothing and painted in an exasperating array of colors from head to toe. I was unable to speak, rather I made the decision not to speak on a molecular level, I found words to be primitive, restrictive, and unnecessary. I communicated through spirit, much like I learned while a Wiccan. But none of my companions could receive my communications, or if they did they didn't tell me. Near my peak, I realized I had nothing to fear but fear itself. Being aware of the potential danger negated any and all harm it posed to me. But all good things must come to an end. My group and I returned home some time around noon, ecstatic and buzzing with conversation of our experiences. Of the five of us tripping, only one of us was a seasoned veteran in tripping. He smiled like a father smiles fondly on his children excited to ride bicycles for the first time. Each of us made jokes and laughed at our fears for the experience. But I began to recall a particular time in my trip. When every moment seemed to thrust me into a new and overwhelmingly beautiful world. A time when every beat of my heart was a shotgun blast in my ears, when every atom in all of creation was pounding against my psyche, screaming endlessly for my undivided attention. When I silently begged for a repreive from this assault on all of my senses. I became quiet and reminescent on this time, which I can't tell if it lasted a moment, or all of eternity. Now that time has passed, I'm presented with the opportunity to do LSD again. But I'm afraid of being overwhelmed again and having a bad trip. What are the validity of my fears? Is respecting the chemical and the potential for danger enough to keep me safe? What are the deciding factors of a bad trip and a good trip? How can I do things in a way to keep my odds of a pleasant experience at its highest?
You can't really control whether you have a bad trip or not when it comes down to it. There's always the possibility, but really it's nothing to be afraid of. Anything you experience comes from within you so any negativity you experience tends to be largely cathartic. It sounds like this is the kind of experience you had. I'd be inclined to think that your next trip will be a more positive one as you'll have some idea of what you're getting into and instead of worrying about so many new sensations you can sit back and enjoy them. It sounds like you had a pretty strong trip last time, what was your dose? If you're still worried about the trip being too intense you can always take less, although you may end up underwhelmed instead .
It is all about set and settting ,if you are in a bad place in your mind or don't feel safe dosing you most likely to have a bad time.
Now is a good time to learn more about the psychedelic world, read some of the classic texts on tripping, and reflect and integrate what that first experience means to you. It can be a crossroads in your life. You can choose to educate yourself and use this to improve your life. Considering what you described as your background, you came out well. From here on there's no need to worry that you're doomed to have a bad trip or wind up with permanent scars. No, it's enough to tell you to learn more about safe practices.
In many cases it's near impossible to prevent a bad trip. Especially if you are with the wrong people. For example, I was at a small get together at a friend's house and two of my friends were tripping. All of a sudden someone drove by the house and one of my friends jokingly said "Dude it's the cops!" even though it clearly wasn't. This made one of the trippers become extremely paranoid and freaked out. Ended up later calling his parents in the middle of the night saying he's going to kill himself. Don't underestimate the power of LSD.
The frequency of bad trips is often overstated, I don't believe that LSD is like a russian roulette type experience. Proper preparation and attention to set and setting as has been mentioned is most likely going to lead you to a positive/beneficial experience. However the severity of a bad trip is often understated, we're not all wired the same way and many seem to fail to realize that and LSD is an extremely powerful trip. So your fears are valid but I wouldn't try to fixate on them. Prepare accordingly and try to channel that nervousness and fear into excitement and you should be fine. Set and Setting is the answer to all these questions.
I took one square and each square had two drops, my fellow anxiety victim took half of one and said she felt like she was having one long, full body orgasm. Two of my friends took four, the veteran of our group took seven. I later found out that our batch was exceptionally clean and pure. I'm told I had a psychedelic oriented mind before I even knew about psychedelics. I'm not sure if that contributed at all. But I can say, I figured out 'Nothing is true, everything is permitted' real fast. As far as my next trip gpes: I'm being extremely cautious. I'm not taking any chances and I'm doing it only in settimgs I'm comfortable with.
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Your experience seems to be the lesson to your inquiries. You've already answered yourself from the way I see it. The best advice I can give you is to respect your emotions, everything you sense and feel will be multiplied and to some degree you can control that. What you felt "I realized I had nothing to fear except fear itself" That's exactly what you need to remember. If you find yourself panicked, try repeating lines to you self. I'm not the biggest fan of Bob Marly, but man are his lines helpful "Don't you worry about a thing, cause every little thing, is gonna be alright" "Don't worry, be happy" "Let's get together and be alright" Ride it out, Go ride the music, just respect and enjoy. What I love about acid, is it truly feels as if your exploring your spiritual conscience. Sure some things will be scary, but you will be alright, and that's all you have to remind yourself. I'll still have some times of worry and panic, and I have some experience. Just know, what every happens you will be back to normal. It'll be great! (For me the come-up to peak is usually the most uncomfortable part) Peace and love my man! Your first experience seemed very rewarding
It's actually from a slovenian novel from the 1930s http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alamut_(1938_novel) it's a wondrous statement!
Which is actually just a rephrasing of a quote from a Russian novel from the 1880s http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Brothers_Karamazov
oh my goodness reading about this is making me so excited for my next trip. i completely i dentify with how you are feeling. that feeling of having your conciousness ripped open second after second can be very overwhelming. i reach a point like that in every one of my trips. let me tell you a bit about my experiences because i think there are some parallells. if i am not at a festival, i am usually tripping in a very spiritual environment. my friend and i have small rituals at important times of the year like full moons, equinoxes, soltices and such. we do lots of things to clense the room of negative enrgies, we eat very healthy all day so that all our physical needs are met and we are well nurished. it starts off the trip on a really good note. then we invite lots of positive energy into the room, and go about our ritual. a good portion of the rituals involve meditiation at wich point we are usually starting to reach a peak in our trip. now this is where i really identify with you. i feel like i am always so greatful for the meditation because i am very overwhelmed at all the energy and information coming into my mind and body. meditation is so intense it becomes transcendental and i feel like my mind elevates to higher vibrational planes. immediately after this meditation, i feel so overwhelmed that my one and only thought is to go outside. i just think "outside. right now" in my head. i want to be with nature and get away from the strong energy of the room. my friends usually want to stay inside and drink wine or smoke weed before leaving but all i want to do is get out. i am naturally a very perceptive person and being in such a powerful environment in such an elevated state is like comeplete overload to me once i go outside and make it into the woods i feel absolutely BLISSFUL. all my tensions wash away and i am filled with universal love and understanding. i begin to unpack what i saw and felt during my meditation, and i look at the beautiful world i am seeing before me. after the peak comes down a little, i am able to go back inside and not be so overwhelmed. but when i am finishing up the ritual before going outside i often feel like "oh my god i really can't handle this. its too much and i need it to slow down." and i feel a little scared. all i have to do is keep telling myself i am fine and everything will be ok. once i make it through that time the rest of my trip is always so awesome
I'm so scared I'll have that overwhelm again. I was outside and in a great environment the whole time and still had those mini panic attacks. Even my voice scared the living hell out of me. I want to integrate Spirit more. I have hippie friends but I'm the most spiritually attuned. So they don't really understand me entirely. I kind of want to trip with you! I would love to be a part of some ceremony or ritual while tripping. I've had some pretty intense experiences during a full moon ritual so I imagine it could only be better
I had a completely overwhelming trip on potential LSD (could've been something else), I too, have really bad anxiety and intrusive thoughts (my traumatic trip made my anxiety and depression worse though), but I attribute that to the fact I was in bad place, bad mind set (pissed off), bad setting, and just had unresolved issues and wasn't tripping for the right reasons, disrespected my mind and the drug (so many bad factors in my case) nonetheless, the trip changed my life in bad and good ways. If it interests you, you should do it, but definitely definitely make sure you're in a good place, mentally prepare and be ready to brave the unknown, as bad trips are bound to happen even if you are in a good set and setting. You never know what you're getting, but have everything considered and safety checks in mind, and go into it with a curious, calm and content attitude. Also make sure it is real LSD. I think you should tripping is something else. I am actually pondering if I should or can be able to trip in the future, so I relate. Sent from my IdeaTabA2109A using Tapatalk 4
If you're scared for a freak out, try a smaller dose maybe? Just a suggestion. Sent from my IdeaTabA2109A using Tapatalk 4
