So after years of what I think is a mix of panic attacks, anxiety, PTSD and OCD I finally picked up the phone and asked for help. I felt like a big dork when I was on the phone with the girl trying to find a therapist to go see, I started crying when she asked me why I needed help. It's hard admitting that you need help with something, it's hard to deal with the fact that it's finally interfering with your life that much that you just can't handle it anymore... it's even harder when you step back and realize that it's not just affecting you anymore. Last night after years of my husband asking me "what's wrong" I finally told him instead of saying "nothing"...what I always really meant was "it's nothing you're doing or can fix". He held me so tight and I felt sooo bad, because I knew he just wanted to take all horrible feelings and pain away. I've gotten to the point in my life where I can't just push these feelings aside, they're taking toll on my marriage and everyday life. I can't be alone in my house when I can't see out the windows, I can't go to my car without thinking someone is in the back seat, and it takes all the effort I have just to open a door because I think someone or something is on the other side. The worst feeling is the weirdest... The best I can describe it is if you've ever watched a horror movie where there is a ghost that the person can't see, but they're standing right in front of them screaming in their face or about to attack them. I live in fear everyday, and I finally took that step to get help....I have to admit, it feels good to have finally done it, I've been meaning to for months, but I know it's going to get harder before I can get better....now I have to finally say these things that I'm feeling, I have to actually talk about things, which is scary all in itself.
Good for you...takes a lot of courage to face our own fears and sounds like you have some major fear going on. If your therapist is an MD they may prescribe some anti-anxiety type meds. These things are great when used responsibly and as prescribed. Give your therapist adequate time but if you don't feel they're right for you, find someone else. Good luck and good for you for facing this.
I'm so happy for you! Getting help is such a major step. I've been having fears similar to yours, and I also recently made a therapist appointment. Are you afraid for your actual session? Because I have no idea how to start a conversation with my therapist, what sort of questions she's going to ask, etc..
I guess I'm afraid for the fact that I have to actually talk about it instead of holding it all bottled in, it'll be a good realease, but I figure I'll be pretty wiped out afterwards...as far as starting a conversation, I think that's what they're paid for, to ask the right questions to get you to talk about what's going on. I have no clue what to expect, but hopefully it helps.... good luck to you with your appointment, let me know how it goes.
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*hugs* good luck with your help..and I hope that you're able to manage your feelings. It is hard admitting, and taking that first step is half the battle.
IT is so AWESOME that you are getting help.... please let us know how it goes. And please don't get discouraged if the first therapist isn't the right one for you. I had 3 before I found the right person to help me.
I called the therapist last week and we were playing phone tag for a while.... now I guess I have to try calling her again, the last message she left she said she'd call me the next day and I haven't heard from her....which leads me to believe that maybe she isn't the right therapist for me.... also she was recommended by a few co-workers of mine and the one said to me at work "I hear you and Theresa have been playing phone tag" Just because I told her in my message that they recommended her doesn't mean she should be telling them that I'm planning on going to see her. Right? Or am I just overreacting? Another thing that's got me hesitant is that I am moving soon and I will have to find a new job....which means new insurance...which means I might not be able to go to whoever I find anyway.....maybe I'm making excuses. yeah, I'm probable making excuses. Thanks for all your support, I'll let you know how it goes.
Totally believe in that law of attraction, if it goes how I think it goes.... Positive thoughts create positive reactions and negative thoughts attract negative reactions... am I right? I've thought this way for a very long time, I was looking forward to seeing the video, but I don't like paying for things, especially over the internet.
I called the dr today and got an appointment for next Thursday at 6pm... we'll see how it goes, I'll let you all know. Yup thats what I figured, and how I've thought for a long time to begin with (think positive and positive things will happen).... can work against you though, two examples.... 1) I was feeling like all of my friends had all these responsibilities and all, family, school, etc. I wished that someone would find some free time away from their school work or familys so I could have someone to hang out with....bam! One of my best friends husband told her he wanted a divorce... well, she is free to hang out now..... .and more recently, 2) I've been kind of upset b/c my husband works 1 hour and 1/2 away, which means that I barely get to see him. I was wanting so badly for him to be home more so I could spend more time with him, and BAM! He just got fired. Just goes to show- be careful what you wish for, it just might come true. I guess that could be part of that law of attraction. The only thing I don't get is that I wasn't wishing or wanting with ill intentions, but seems to be pretty bad outcomes don't you think?
