Any Day Now

This is probably the first time many of you have heard this, but I want you all to know before it's too late.

I've been suicidal in the past and managed to pull myself out, but this time I'm sinking further and further... Drugs don't help.

Anyways, it could be something tomorrow or even tonight to set me off and make me lose it, so I want you guys to know that if you ever stop hearing from me that you guys are some of the best people I know, and I wish I could have met many of you.

You've been fun to talk to, and if it happens, I hope to see you in the afterlife...

 

Okay dude. If you're being serious, you honestly have no idea, that what you are talking about is just scary.

Don't just think about yourself. Think about those around you. my friends boyfriend killed himself on his birthday, she has NEVER been the same. What you do will affect more than just you, it will have a horrible effect on those around you.

I am urging you to reconsider. Why would you listen to some dude you don't even know on the internet anyway? You probably won't. But you really, REALLY should. Don't let it happen dude. Keep on trucking. I'd say Get help, but im sure that has crossed your path, but seriously, there are people to talk to, and i can't simply tell you how well they will help you unless you do it. It is one of those things you have to do to believe. Just, try it at least, just so you know im not kidding. Some of those people out there are the greatest and listen to your every word giving you the best advice of your life. Please dude, one fellow Ontarian to another, don't.

Don't do it. Think about the repercussions.

 

I lost 16 people in two years.

You should smoke a blunt and reconsider this. I'm sure there are plenty of five year olds with cancer and in places like Colombia or Ethiopia that could change your mind and your aspect on life.

This coming from someone who has depression... and has had those thoughts and feelings. I just convinced myself not to listen to that part of me and that it just isn't me. I think I have too much heart to do that to people.

 

People do love you man.

They do. That should be enough to change your mind.

 

And... I know a guy from Hamilton. Been there a few times.

Odd city it is. I like the ridge in Stoney Creek... and I miss Up In Smoke.

 

I've been there, and been around people who have been there, I can't really give much advice without hearing the rest of your story; maybe it's private but think you could share and I swear I'll do my best to help?

 

There is nothing to gain from killing yourself. Don't do it.

 

If anyone wants some more info then check the Random Thoughts section and also the Mental Health section...

I dont know what to do...

I just popped like a bunch of muscle relaxants (500mg APAP/400mg Methocarbamol) and I'm not feeling that bad anymore, but I'm still not feeling great.

 

As I've said in the other threads... please dont.

Things look down now and you can't see how good they can (and will!) be in the future but things will change... I promise!

 

Twizz, your way smarter than this. You have no idea how lucky you are(and all of us) to have life. Were all going to die someday, theres no reason to rush it. Enjoy what you can on this earth, you only live once. There is NO wordly situation that should make one want to end his/her life.


Think of the people who have to go through REAL bullshit, such as getting raped every night, getting beaten by a parents every day, kids who have diseases and cancer who BEG for thier health, and you have yours and want to end everything? Please, dont.

As swazo said, your effecting every single person who loves you for the rest of their life, so if you can please..PLEASE think of others, you wil reconsider even thinking about doing such thing.

Another thing, man i know many many old folks that have established the life they have always wanted. You might ask how? Simply doing things for others. Making somebody else happy, maybe by doing them a favor or helping them in need or ANYTHING will atleast make me happy. Im not saying your a selfish kid, but living a selfish life WILL make you feel the way you are now. Go out and help others, help the world, and smoke a fat blunt after and think about everyone you made happier.


EDIT: The best advise i can give you, is to think positive about everything. Be thankful for your house, your tv, your friggin internet connection, so many people just wish they had FOOD to eat.

 

PLEASE..dont...just listen...things get better , It just seems bad right now ....PM someon ..we all care and we all will talk to you !!

 

listen to smokindude hes right on the spot

 

dude wtf would u gain from killin urself i mean come on theres nothing to gain u will never again have a good memory u will never again be able to set with ur family and friends and laugh and talk and have good times ull never be able to go out and smoke one with ur friends and feel the thrill and rush of not gettin caught u will never be able to do anything good or bad.....have u ever looked into a cancer patients eyes and seen that struggle the one that they are fighting just for those last precious days of life cuz u never know how many u will have left and when u finally get pushed completely to the verge of death like they are u realize all these little things that u are gonna miss cuz its really the little things in life that matter i mean think of it this way ur car breaks down in the middle of a road out in the middle of nowhere and ur stranded yea thats a big thing and its a bad thing to happen but its the little things that u hafta look at like the ppl that pick u up and take u to where u need to go and become friends its when u start to realize all these little good things about life and how much that u miss them that u start fighting death and trying to keep urself alive no matter how hard the struggle is and yea im not gonna say its not a hard struggle when ur depressed and shit becuz ive been there ive had family there ive had friends there and i know how it effects u and everyone around u but trust me man things will get better if u will just keep up the fight and try
one last thing to tell u is the only way to go from the bottom is up
hope this helps in some way becuz even if i dont even know u or anything about u i kno that theres ppl out here that need u around man i mean maybe ull end up helpin someone else in a situation like this out sometime

keep fightin man

 

paragraphs man, paragraphs.

 

dude forget paragraphs, lets start with fuckin sentences...

Twizz many of us have been there, life is full of ups and downs. I donn't want somebody to ask the forum in six months where Twizz has been and I have to link them to this thread.

 

Ya, twizz lets see a post or 2..how are ya doin?

 

dude im from old kentucky u cant make fun of me for how i type lol
and yea i agree wit everybody twizz u need to pop in and say hey or sumtin man we're worried about ya

 

I really hope he's alright, thoughts and prayers. Please come back let us know you're alright dude.

 

I'm alright for now, but I'm going to be failing a midterm algebra test today because I can't understand algebra the way my teacher shows me... I'm fucked...

We'll see how it goes after that..

 

algebra doesnt matter fuck it fail it its no big deal when it comes to your life

dont let others expectations color how u see yourself or your life
man ive seen so many lives wasted over 1 bad grade, i seen kids die ober just 1 B on a report card just cause theyre freakin parents demanded perfection..
if u fail algebra so fucking what?
ya think i ever used 1 bit of ealgebras in my life or even remembetr what any of it means? hell no..

just remember what matters...life.. and forget about the rest it just doesnt matter