Last night i smoked a joint on my own and was lying down reading a book. All of a sudden i began to feel very uncomfortable. Now i've had a panic attack off this stuff before but that was 5 years ago. I quit for a year after that but then i started smoking again with the mindset that there's nothing to be scared of. Till last night i thought i had it under control cos every time i would feel uncomfortable i'd just get my mind off it. Last night was different i just couldn't do anything about it. I just wanted the feeling to go away and it felt like it wouldn't. So i called up a friend and spoke to him and then slowly started feeling better and about 6 hours after i smoked the joint i was back to normal. I still feel slightly dazed from all that but i know thats normal cos i've been through it before. The weird thing is that it felt like this state of panic that i only experience sometimes when i sleepwalk. Now that's been happening to me since i was a kid. Id wake up in the middle of the night and just be panicing about i dont even know what. every thought just seems to fuck with my head. The only other time i felt like that was last time i had a panic attack off hash. I really wish this hadnt happened cos i really do enjoy being high and i dont even do it more than once or twice a week. It usually just takes my mind off my problems and helps me relax. Last night was the opposite. And i know this happens to a lot of people but i just don't want it to happen again.
Weed is powerful. I don't see why everyone thinks that this is child stuff. But try to find your limit. Smoke a bowl or two and see if that's enough or too much, or not enough. But there really isn't anything to be scared of.
