ok, hetro guys typically assume im a dyke. dykes tend to overlook me. i dont really have any sort of gaydar. im pretty butch and i have decent feminist political education to boot. all of my long term relationships have been male. but they have all sucked. ive had a few girl experiences and have enjoyed them all. i am currently in a relationship with the father of my 1 yr old child. i dont want to be! we've hardly had sex since the baby came, and im not interested in having sex with him anymore. i have zero interest in males now in any capacity. i see dykes out on the street and i really like the vibe i get from seeing female couples. i feel like i could do that. i feel like if one of my best friends over the years had been a dyke, that i would have had a relationship with her. what do you think? is it a case of grass is always greener on the otherside? is it normal to just get to a point in your life and then suddenly realise what you really want is different to what you once thought?
First off, I think the word dyke is a very derogatory term. Second, I think it's extremely possible to realize that you're not actually into guys. For some people it doesn't take very long. Like for me for instance, I realized I had feelings towards girls back in middle school, though I was too young to understand why at the time. I've been out of high school for about 2 years now. For other people it could take their entire life to realize it. I think what you really need to do is sit down and think to yourself: Who do I see myself with? Male or female? Who would I want to spend the rest of my life with? In what way am I attracted to that/those people? Have I always felt this way and not have realized it? Who am I happiest with? When it comes down to it, YOU need to be happy. You need to figure out who you are before it makes you unhappy and effects your child in some way. The earlier you figure yourself out, the easier it will be for him/her to accept who you are if it turns out that you are attracted to women physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I know that if you realize you are in fact a lesbian, your biggest fear will be for the well being for your child and the way I see it, is that the earlier you find out who you are, the better off it will be for your child as well. Best of luck hun, I hope this helps.
