I'm in a particularly negative state of mind at this point in my life, specifically concerning love and relationships... i've pondered this for quite some time... Wouldn't it be really nice if there was a way to feel alone... with someone? i don't ever feel like myself when i am with other people, therfore it is uncomfortable to varying degrees and never fully satisfying... when i am alone i feel like myself, but it is lonely... so if i could somehow entwine the 2 aspects, it would be perfect... Does that make any sense? Is it wishful thinking? It just kind of sucks when you lose all faith in that which you used to believe so strongly in.
I'll start by saying that believing strongly in anything is dangerous. Unless I'm wrong. Words of a skeptic. I felt what you describe several times. Why do we feel self-conscious? Fear of exposing ourselves, is it not? What is the solution if not showing the other our ugliest?
changing yourself for others sucks i often feel alone with my bf, in a good way. when i choose it. ok, when im playing at the computer (particularly when i have music on) and hes doing something else, ie playing ps2. yes were huge geeks, but at least we can escape to our respective worlds while being in teh same room from time to time. i especially need it, i need my time by myself to regroup, re energize, reste my mind
Sounds something like what I'd like. I just want us to be with eachother. Nobody else to interfere with a good thing. I want to live on the beach of some island, away from negativity for a change.
