Anyone else DESPISE it? Whenever I'm under the influence, I want to relax and let the drugs do their job. Yet when I'm around people who I need to be sober around, one of two things can happen: 1. It kills my buzz 2. I get horrible anxiety and end up giving away that something is wrong with me.
The drugs I take don't really make me visibly "high." I take opioids and stimulants and have a tolerance to both. I go about my daily business high as a kite on opioids and no one notices. However, when I really want to chill out and close my eyes to relax on opioids, I don't like sober people (or any people for that) around. It is a buzz kill. I love being around sober people when high on stimulants, though. It is great to talk their heads off.
stimulants and opiates are super easy to hide, but psychedelics . . . no hope for me. Even pot . . . my parents know INSTANTLY when i'm high.
I can't remember what it is like to have to act sober around people. Not since I was 13-15 did I have to do that because I moved out at 16.
a few weeks ago, i was on a high mystery nasal dose of 2c-i [seemed to be around 50mg, making a point not to the dose proved to be fun ..probably not the best advise to give] i found myself in Dennys at about 4am...i decided to continue to act ridiculous, and just pretend i was drunk...nothing wrong with being drunk at dennys at 4am.
