Acid binge

Don't really know where else to go with this...but since the end of November I've had roughly 30ish tabs of acid. in a 3 and a half week period I had almost 30 tabs, just casually eating it like it's candy because I didn't really know that much about it. And now I feel like I'm fucked for life, I have never had such bad anxiety in my life. I know it was a stupid idea to have that amount...but is there any chance of my ever getting out of this anxiety or depression that I've created for myself? I've recently stopped smoking weed and I used to use that as a tool to help calm my anxiety and now I don't even have that, the last time I did smoke pot I started to feel anxious and not pleasant.

Any help or personal life stories would be helpful. Just want to know if I'm going to be okay again...:/

Thanks.

 

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Could be, ask the voices. Probably not though, you'll sober up eventually.

But umm...how would you even fit that many trips into your daily life? how many were you dosing at once, cos I'm pretty damn sure your tolerance will be pretty fuckin' high at this point.

Next time you wanna do that shit, send some tabs my way instead of wasting them all.. getting itchy for some..

 

Any drugs you plan on exploring in the future you should read up and learn what you are ingesting, talk to those with a lot of experience with the particular drug for guidance. You have to suffer the repercussions now for your actions, but abstaining from drugs for a while you're anxiety will probably slowly go away. Not really anything else to say.

 

If it helps, you sound of sober mind in your message, so that is still there. I do think with time you can become healthy again. I've bounced back from some amazing states of mind I was not comfortable with. Take a break. A long break. Exercise, do healthy normal things again.

See a doctor if things don't improve after a month or two max, but I think you'll see that they [perhaps slowly] will start to..

 

good advice.

if u eat L in the future, space your trips AT LEAST a week apart, and pick a dose and eat it all at once, no redosing

 

I probably took all this acid at a wrong time in my life, and I've kind of realised that. I've done coke, meth, speed, shrooms, bics and other shit before and I've never come down like this before. But it's no wonder, I was a bit foolish. I did it 3 time a week, for 3 weeks sometimes I'd have 2 tabs, other times 1, 1 and a half, 3, one time 4, one time 5...I had a lot of time and money on my hands.

I'm going to talk to a psychologist today, hope that helps a bit. I definitely know my moods would be out of whack. I'm trying to get healthy. Been walking a bit, it helps. I think I need stronger anxiety meds. But change can come from within..right? :/

 

I'm also a 19 year old female, have I done myself damage for life? Guess I'll find out today..

 

Holy crap that's a lot, but I had a kinda simular experiance in the past with mushrooms I was tripping on shrooms just about every three days for a few months and during these few months I also snorted vicodin a few times, drank quite a bit, took adderall and did not sleep for four days in a row, tripped on acid, and did extasy twice and was smoking weed every day. So yeah I think I was sober around 5% of the time for those few months. I had a bad trip on mushrooms and that four days on adderall was hell don't really know what I was trying to accomplish exactly.

But yeah after the bad mushroom trip I had it took a while before I really felt better about it...it made my depression and anxiety worse for a bit, but with time it got back to its normal level. The one thing that never went back to normal though is at night after that, the street lights looked different then before not quite like they did while I tripped but more simular. And now after tripping on acid twice recently its even more noticeable and I can see some of those wierd acid colors in them. Sometimes things also seem to be moving a bit like they would if I was tripping that has gotten annoying on occasion.

Is all you're noticing anxiety and depresison? or do you also get distortions of perception like that? I mean what I have found is the anxiety and depression increase from the bad trips and the excessive shrooms seems to decrease with time but I might be stuck with the occasional visual distortions when I'm not tripping. But I am not quite sure what the possible long term effects of excessive acid use specifically are.

I would say smoking weed helps with the depression and anxiety, but if it makes you feel anxious then I would advise against smoking it. I have actually heard of people not enjoying cannabis after a bad trip or excessive psychedelic use more than once not sure why that happens. Also if possible you could maybe get an anti-anxiety prescription if you get diagnosed with anxiety, I just would not mention the 30 hits of acid if I where you. But yeah if I could not have cannabis I would probably settle for something like Xanax.

 

Hmm I've already mentioned it when I called up to have a chat, if they see me I don't think they'll think I'm crazy or anything, I don't feel insane (though I reckon I should :s) just really depressed and anxious. My serotonin levels are definitely out of whack. I had a dream when I was on acid and in that dream I was slightly tripping..

 

Alright well its up to you what you want to tell them......I've told therapists about my use of drugs before. I guess I just feel like some might over-react if you tell them you had 30 hits in that short amount of time. But yeah if its mostly depression and anxiety then talking to a therapist or psychologist could help they will probably have a better idea of how to help you then anyone here.

I just know I would not be comfortable telling most mental health professionals the whole story because they kinda make me paranoid.

 

I don't expect your shrink will know shit about acid, or have anything positive to say about it.

I don't know what to say, except, that was pretty fuckin' stupid, wasn't it? But of all the drugs you could have chosen to do that with, behind weed, acid is one of the most harmless...... You need some sober time, some health food/vitamins/exercise, some general abstinence from drugs, and I think you'll be fine. You're not even describbing HPPD or flashbacks, but just depression/anxiety, I expect it's just from the massive change in "normal"..... Don't take drugs, and in the future, rethink your general behavior with drugs.

 

You will be fine. You will have more anxiety and depression for a while, like 6 months - 2 years. What you need to do is stop _all_ drugs, including pot, starting exercizing, eating well, and stop sitting around doing drugs with ne'erdowells. Start actually doing something with your life and before you know it your mind will be back to normal. You are not fucked for life though you will never forget this.

 

It's never healthy nor wise to stroll willy nilly in and out of the doors of perception. I'm sure you'll be alright my guess is that all of your fundamental beliefs about reality have been shaken a bit.

 

Yeah, I think I will be fine. If anything taking LSD and having anxiety is definitely not a good mix, and I've learnt from my experience, no one needs to tell me it was fucking stupid because I already know lol...my anxiety is probably just making me freak out a bit. But I am going to have a break from drugs, I have time off work (kinda lost my job because of all of this hah :s) and just focus on myself a bit. I stopped smoking weed last week after doing it almost everyday for over a year so I sort of lost my shit a bit a well..but yeah I came to the conclusion I need to do stuff with my life not do drugs all the time, and trying to that other stuff has been a bit difficult but I just need to push through I guess.

 

If we proceed with the premise that your first post is indeed serious... The reason for some of the skepticism is that after a dose, tolerance builds up so rapidly that you essentially need to double up each successive time to even feel it if you don't leave long periods of time between. So it's highly doubtful you were "tripping" daily.
My take is the combination of doing so much ganja and stopping, along with whatever other parts of the story didn't get relayed in your post has something to do with it.
All the 'do exercise, eat healthy, stop consuming vast quantities of drugs' advise is all good.
Let me ask some hypotheticals... (for you to ask yourself)
Why doing so much? Weed, lsd, etc... why'd you really loose your job? What's up with the anxiety? Seeing any commonalities?

Misuse of psyches is a symptom perhaps of something else going on. Maybe taking a break, practicing some of the advice given here, and taking a good hard look at where you're at will reveal something. I'm one to believe that thoughtful use of lsd could help with some underlying sources of psychic disturbances that are hard to see. But doing what you were doing is hiding from things, making things worse and abuse. But, you know all that I suspect.
Look up some 5-HTP, do some reading, find another job, talk with people you care about that can be a support system. Get a handle on this before it takes you down.

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OP did speak casually of amphetamines and other dangerous things, things that are neurotoxic and COULD quite easily cause the problems OP has.

Scapegoating acid? I'm sort of guessing this was part of a normal binge for OP, but this time also had some acid spread around, and acid defined the experience and made it more "real" and scary, and for this, acid got the blame.

 

You'll be fine if you give yourself some time to sober up... like everyone else said. You will most likely have to mature or move on to the next stage of your life. You may not have been ready, but its time. If you abuse LSD, it has a tendency to abuse you back. Atleast you realized you were abusing it after a few months instead of a few years


once you open the doors... they stay open

 

meh

 

Look up "Dr.Abram Hoffer" on youtube. Buy yourself some Niacin (vitamin B3). Take the Niacin, drink alot of water and exercise. You will feel the cloud of anxiety/depressin start to lift right off you. Try it.

 

I think it's better to work than sitting around "working on yourself," (at least not too long) -- that's precisely the deep thought compounded by LSD abuse that got you there in the first place. Life's usually a lot simpler than we like to think. Good luck!