I want to first start out by saying this: Our brains contain as many possible connections between synapses than there are atoms in the universe. We are amazing. The mind is the most complex thing in the entire universe. I smoked salvia 2 times before I crossed over on the 3rd, 4th and 5th. When I finally did, I was part of a world that felt decidedly more real than this one. I was part of the fabric of the world [yes we all are in reality (ha ha what is reality?)] , only I was connected to it and couldn't move. The world was intensely color filled and more vivid than my fantasies imagined. I felt a sudden rush of impending doom. Ok now here’s were the description gets tricky. The thing about salvia is that what I experienced can in no way be described in words..just like hearing music, you can't describe what Beethoven sounds like to a deaf person...anyway... I was part of this "something" that I knew was going to end and we'd all be done for. But what that "something" was fails in words to this day. I have described it to friends as book in which I was one of the pages, and when it closed (I knew the book was going to close and it did) we'd all be done for. I failed to mention: I HAD THE SAME HALLUCINATION 3 TIMES Other attempts at describing it go like this: I was part of a giant twisting zipper world that was being zipped up and when it did I was no longer existing. I died and rebirthed in every hallucination. The rebirth was amazing. I had still a functioning mind but had no idea what anything was or even who I was. After I came to on the fifth time I smoke some marijuana right after. Now, that was a separate non-hallucinatory journey through my mind I'll have to write about another time. Salvia has had lasting positive affects on me to this day; it helped me realize how valuable and absolutely, outrageously amazing it is to have life.
something amazing is that if you look at a large enough scale of people with enough experiences, there are common themes... i've heard of the closing book thing before... i've never experienced it myself though. i love how when you're "rebirthed", you just look at everything, and think about it, and have all your wonderful senses and connections and emotions, and it's just like... it's so beautiful. i can't even believe how perfect it all is. for someone to break through on salvia and remain an athiest, that's completely beyond me. however you define "god", i can't understand believing that everything resulted randomly from complete chaos... it all functions too gorgeously. that's like saying it's possible to dump a bunch of puzzle pieces on the floor and have them all fit together and create an intricate picture just by chance.
Wow dude. The book metaphor is perfect. I've also felt like gears in a clock. It's as if your spine is the spine of the book, and every instant that you live is another page being added onto the end of the book. You past is the pages spiraling downward into infinity, and salvia pulls the spirit away from the book's spine, revealing the vast world of your mind. -Mike
