a little information please

alright so i started taking lsd in the past july, and i have dosed countless times since then...pretty often too, i would have periods where i would trip 3 times in one week and i loved it as well. When first tripping i was so into the experience that all my trips showed me more about life that i didnt know before.

but i started to cut down on the tripping as often still enjoying each trip, until recently for about the past 4 trips i have been kinda out of it and not enojying everything (mostly i think because i just moved into my first year of college and i didnt know anyone, making me feel a little insecure)

but one trip in particular opened my mind to a lot of stuff, i discovered a reality that shocked me

me and my friend robert took 3 doses of some l and were going to go to this concert, well we dropped and the concert turned out to be 21 up, we had nothing to do. we ended up hanging out with these hippies we knew that were tripping too (weird coinscedence? i dont think so) i ended up going into my room and my friend robert blasted some good music, then he handed me the cracker for the nitrious oxide

i took this the day before but i wasnt tripping, it made me think like billions of thoughts at once for a split second and made me hear crazy noises. but when i hit this shit on those 3 doses i flew into space, everything paused and i started hearing noises, i felt like i was reaching enlightment, after the short high from the nos i started freaking out and tripping hard as balls, this is where i came to this conclusion.


i dont know if you guys see this but i noticed that my mind was the center of everything, everyone around me seemed like an illusion of my mind. i started spinning a glowstick to the music and i started hearing those noises come back and i felt like i was tripping on the nos. then the hippy girl next to me started cutting acid, she asked me for some scissors i had on my keys. i handed her the keys and started spinning the glowstick, entering that reality for split seconds. she left quickly, they were going camping. robert came into the room (he left to get bud earlier on) and told me i was going camping. It was cold outside and i was already tripping hard as balls i didnt wanna put myself in a worse enviroment if my room was already freaking me out. but i ended up grabbing my blanket and going. then i noticed my keys were gone and i couldnt lock my dorms door. this thought freaked me out and i was tripping so hard i couldnt even remember giving mary beth my keys.

robert told me to ignore it and come to the car. i ended up putting my blanket in the car and mary beth said "i tend to take things and forget about them, if your ever missing something just ask me". i said " you dont have my keys do you?" she said no and i started feeling even worse. we ended up walking to the camp site and i finally realized she had to have them. i told robert what i thought and to my suprise, he knew all about it, but he wasnt even there.. this blew me away. i finally caught up with mary beth and asked her for my keys, she handed them to me like nothing even happened.

i felt like she ment to put me through that trip to test me in some way. when we got to the camp site i started feeling better, still cold though. then, all of the sudden all the hippies started talking about what i was thinking about at the moment. i was so blown away by this and everytime i tried to figure out how they did it, every single person i was with started talking in fast nonsense and being loud, confusing me even more. i started tuning out and started spinning this ball of glowsticks. i entered that state for about 3 seconds, still blown away of how i was doing this. then my friend robert said something like "i like what you just did". everything was blowing me away how people knew what i thought and experienced, but i couldnt do it back to them.

i ended up going in the tent and tried to go to sleep, so scared of this new reality i was experiencing. i got so cold and everytime i truely and deeply desired a blanket, mary beth would put a blanket on the spot where i was cold and said something like "here you go".

this is where i let my mind reflect on everything that just happend and everytime i came i came to a breakthough everyone would be stop talking and i would notice and then they would all sigh like i missed out on my chance. i then started coming to more breakthroughs and when i did one that i cant remember now, jacob (another hippie there) was like, "oh shit". I looked up at him and he was looking at me and everyone else was like "what?" and he was like you guys dont even know what just happened just now and started laughing. i started laughing with him blown away that he knew that.

this leads me to my first question....
i want an explanation of how someone could possibly hear my thoughts





i believe that lsd can show one the secret to life


thats what made me realize that my friends and my whole reality im in is a creation of my mind and each person balances each other out. After i realized this i was happy, but shocked for about 3 days after, during this time i read up on how to trip properly from shroomery.org. i read about how selfish thoughts CAN affect you and if you treat people the way you would like to be treated you can achieve the enlightenment that i could only hold for 3 or 4 seconds without being distracted. I then took 2 more doses alone and decided i was going to get myself out of this depressed state of mind. I started out right in my room with music and guitar, but i started coming up on my way to my first class (i thought giving myself something to do would put my mind to a more focused state) and i started tripping out first period. I wasnt focusesing on anything anyone was sayign and i startd making my own hallucinations with the projector on the ceiling. i ended up going to work where i fucked everything up and had the worst time for 2 hours just constantly fucking up and only paying attention to what was happening at the time, not letting everything flow together. then i went back to my dorm and sat with my friend robert, who i dosed with on the last trip. I told him i was tripping and started playing on his drumpad. I am a musician so my creativity on instruments are insane when im tripping, i never played the snare drum pad before but i immediatly started jamming. when i let myself go and flowed with the music and let my mind fly, i started going back into harmony, but my friend robert kept distracting me it seemed like everytime i would go into that state. Ever since my trip got better i started being more like myself again and i would like to ask you guys if this fact could still be true

does my mind create the people around me?

 

This is very significant. I would like it if people, before discounting this idea, explored their own experience of it. I have also felt while tripping that some people would say things that somehow implied not only that they knew exactly what i was thinking but also that they had thought about it a lot longer than me and then found an answer to it. This was the indication to me of a universal consciousness, the fact that I seemed to be playing with ideas that were general, and went beyond personal experiences and understandings.
But I dont believe that other people are just creations of my mind. Instead, I believe that what people MEAN when I hear them say something, is a creation of my mind. But what they mean to themselves might be something very different to what I am interpreting. Two people can have a conversation together but be thinking about different things, so long as their words to not contradict eachother's understanding. But two noncontradictory meanings can exist whilst also being inconsistent

 

thats exactly what i experienced i just couldnt put it into words like that

that response makes a whole lot of sense to me now and im glad i took the time to write that story for that reason

 

Your story just sounds like you were mad f'ed up lol and had some crazy ass beliefs on how all of that life-stuff works. The NOS probably launched you into an out-of-body type experience, where you just pretty much lost your whole field of vision, & at which point you just started to see pure energy surrounding you.

You are as real as the people around you. The names more or less important, but they are human beings as you are. In the most basic way of looking at it, you are just consciousness surrounded by other consciousness, whatever the consciousness itself is made up of is out of your capability of knowing.

And as far as the thinking thing goes, it usually ends up as them just reading how you feel rather than what you think. Acid is good for the whole group "connection" thing.

 

that nos did make me see and feel so much energy

im glad my thoughts arent real though, that would be a very uncomfortable reality

 

your thoughts are being harvested by very intelligent aliens.

does that make you feel uncomfortable?

 

yea

it does

 

how do you harvest thoughts

 

It's just a theory of mine I am trying to unravel and see where it leads...

I know for a fact this consciousness is synthesized, though.

 

Someone is creating my consciousness?

 

stalk is paying too much attention to that crazy voice in his head.

 

DNA

 

you think DNA creates consciousness?

 

No I think DNA was synthesized.

Consciousness creates itself.

 

I R think DNA be the bildin blox of life.

 

Do you read books, swoosh? I think you are a complete moron.

 

oh my dear god....thats funny:cheers2:

 

I was joking on the last comment, don't take it to heart.. but for your Q, Books that I enjoy. Do you think I care what you think?

 

man will you guys stop spamming all the threads with your bickering?

goddamn..

 

I'm trying to share my ideas, but I keep getting attacked by this child.