Let me tell you what a real mindfuck is. Reality. What one human being is capable of doing to another. What a father can do to his son. I was 8 yrs. old and while my mother slept my father sat on the edge of my bed and told me he wanted to start me on fire. He thought the flames would be beautiful, yellow and blue dancing all over me and the smell would be like roasting meat. My father used to smoke cigars and he would light them with Blue Diamond wooden stick matches. I remember every time I heard a match being struck followed by the little whoosh sound would and still does terrify me. My father was sick, I just didnt know it at the time. I thought I must have done something horrible for him to hate me that way, but I didnt know what. I would rack my brains until I was exhausted trying to think of something that would explain it but I came up empty handed every time. Ill never forget the little grin on his face and the smile in his eyes when he told me that, as if he were telling me we were going camping or he had something special for me for my birthday. When I was 10 yrs. old our garage started on fire and I vividly remember him looking at me as the firemen put the blazes out, he looked at me the same way he did the night he told me he wanted to start me on fire. By the time I was 11 yrs. old my father had been commited to the psychiatric ward for the people that lived in his head. I havent seen or heard from him since but I heard he lives in Kentucky somewhere. My father mindfucked me to the point of if I see someone light a cigar I get ill. nauseous and will cross the street to avoid the smell. He mindfucked me to the point of being literally frozen with fear when I see or smell fire. This is what a mindfuck is people......reality !
and you never went through a pyro phase? also going to guess you don't the warm soothing glow of a fireplace.
Well, duh! EDIT: I'm very sorry about your father's condition and the terror in which you must have lived for these years though. I kind of read the title and the bottom line and based my reply on that, so forgive me if my initial two words sounded a bit blunt, should read better before answering.
Well hailtotheking none of its true but thanks for letting me fuck with your mind. No hard feelings ok ? ( It is the mindfuck forum right ?)
